sakura
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| Rank | Senior Member |
| Online Status | OFFLINE |
| Member Since | 03/13/2009 09:07 PM |
| Last Online | 12/21/2010 05:33 PM |
| Gender: | Female |
| City: | Los Angeles |
| State: | California |
| Website: | http://www.facebook.com/help/#/profile.php?ref=profile&id=1287377612 |
| A little about me: | I've been what they used to call a cutter since I was about 15. I'm 26 now and I still struggle with it. I was diagnosed with schizo-affective disorder in March 2008 and then re-diagnosed with Bipolar 1 disorder later on that month. I've been hospitalized 4 times because of it but have never been hospitalized for SI. I've kept it hidden from my loved ones and dare not disclose it to them so that I may not hurt them even further. Because of the bipolar, my parents, brother, and sister have been deeply wounded by the trauma I went through. My parents are even ashamed of it. They seem to be in a state or denial that their own daughter is, dare I say it, "crazy." They want so badly for me to stop taking my meds but they weren't there for me when I was going through my worst so I feel that they don't have any position to say what I should or shouldn't do. I love them, but this is my life and I need to be sane. Don't get me wrong, I would love to stop taking my meds but I would rather be out of the hospital too. I'm working with my doctor on slowly lessening my dosages and maybe even going off them completely but right now I feel great that they are even working with me on this. I'm taking it one day at a time and so far I feel better and not so medicated and numb. As far as SI goes, I take it one day at a time too. I'm proud to say that my 'sessions' are more far and fewer between. I still struggle with it daily but I look to God more and more to help me and bless with with courage and strength to fight my demons. Suffice it to say, prayer helps me a lot. I'm not religious, but more of a spiritual individual. Let's just say, I'm a firm believer. Other than that I love to cook, read, write, work out, philosophize.... I love spending time with my dogs and my really good friends. I also love to ride [motorcycles] and horses - they're my favorite animal. I'm open to a lot of things. If you want to get to know me better just PM any time. Thanks for reading and I hope you like the videos I posted too. |
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 | Happiest Father's Day to all our dads. Here are some quotes for you. :) "I want my son to wear a helmet 24 hours a day." ~Will Arnett "When I was a boy of 14, my father was so ignorant I could hardly stand to have the old man around. But when I got to be 21, I was astonished at how much he had learned in seven years." ~Mark Twain "It is admirable for a father to take his son fishing, but there is a special place in heaven for the father who takes his daughter shopping." ~John Sinor (((BIG BEAR HUGS))) -Sarah |
| hiya, hope alls going well for you. im off out for a trip this sunday to an old abbey ruin should be nice. hope youve got some fun lined up for your weekend, enjoy whatever you do |
| Hello SE&PT sg member, Firstly, a very warm welcome to all new members here- make your fine selves at home with us please. Secondly yet just as equally first- huge heartfelt thanks to Doris/Dee who am co GL with - so grateful for all her wonderful posts that she shares with us- please everyone check them out!! Please take a look at all the new posts. Please vent, lean on us, ask questions, reply to posts, rate discussions- just join in, better for you as well as for the group as a whole for you to instead of being passive take a dynamic/proactive role, for sure! :-) Many thanks in advance for your input/taking part, too! There are 1080 members yet it both saddens plus frustrates me in equal measure yet only the same handful of individuals seem to want to participate. Bewilders me too as there are some awesome posts in all the Forums- plenty for everyone. So make it so No. 1 ;-)(excuse me am a Star Trek fan) yet seriously,post today or tomorrow or next week yet post when you can to the best that you can- the more active the group is the better it is for everyone- variety is the spice of life. We learn from one another, we lean on one another- either way we move forward :-)! Will be away on vacation from the 10th of June for 4 nights, yet, may be offline for a little longer- just to let you all know. Yet, am leaving you in the capable hands of April, SS & Dee. Take most excellent care of You as well as of each other here- tenderness, love, patience, openness, courage, faith, hope, forgiveness,respect and intuition, okay. Look forward to seeing lots of activity when return from vacation- thanks for your support as well as for choosing to not just watch from the sidelines. (i) angels tremendously anoint each one of You right here right now(i) may this be so Namaste - the light in me honours the light in You Sending super gentle hugs to you all plus warmest wishes, Love Clarita(batgirl in high pains yet happy as soon will be 40 plus soon be on vacation with hubby Chris & our k9 Sebster so am smiling :-)) |
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| Title | Date | Views | Comments |
| An empty void... | 05/14/2010 | 162 | 2 |
| Missing him... | 03/14/2010 | 132 | 3 |
| Insomnia? Or sleep all day type of stuff...? | 01/23/2010 | 230 | 2 |
| Fed Up | 12/28/2009 | 157 | 2 |
| A Bleeding Heart | 12/05/2009 | 163 | 2 |
| The Dark Side | 11/16/2009 | 145 | 0 |
| Headed Back Home | 09/17/2009 | 146 | 2 |
| Decisions Decisions | 08/28/2009 | 126 | 0 |
| I made it! | 08/27/2009 | 135 | 1 |
| Signs of an episode | 08/22/2009 | 128 | 0 |
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