Deidre
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| Rank | Member |
| Online Status | OFFLINE |
| Member Since | 03/09/2009 12:43 PM |
| Last Online | 03/29/2012 03:22 PM |
| Gender: | Female |
| City: | Anchorage |
| State: | Alaska |
| A little about me: | I am a 42 year old , with fibro for possibly 13 years. I also have Hep c and some of the symptoms parrelle each other so it's hard for me to know what's what. |
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Another day in my bedroom in Alaska
My husband called from work today, he's at a new job.He told me his supervisor is one of those grumpy old men that seem to yell all the time, but usually don't mean anything by it. He said the guy yelled at him, and one of the other guys told the sup, you are suppose to encourage the new guy, not hurt his feelings. He looked up and said, ( my husband) don't worry about it, I have no feelings, drives my wife crazy. Everybody laughed. He thought this was funny enough to share with me. I didn't. I thought "sad but true" he has tuned out to me. He is the only person I know in Alaska and it doesn't matter to him anymore if I say I'm hurting. He acts like I said the sky is blue. If I try to say something about how I'm feeling he says " I know, I'm the bad guy like usual" than turns over and goes to sleep. I am alone again It's starting to affect my personality. There is nothing to look forward to any more. I am a nuise on his neck. My plac is just within these four walls, It dosen't matter if I cry. I ca't effect a change. Last night I went as far as to say,Why did you let me divorce someone that loved me, if you weren't going to? He said the grass is always greener on the otherside, don't let the door hit you in the ass. He knows I have no money, and no where to go, My mother constantly reminds me, to not aske bad questions, and to play nice or make up, because there are no alternatives. Meaning no where for me to go. He went to sleep after that. I actually looked online at womens shelters. But he's not abusive. How long will it take before he kicks me out? What would I do, when I can barely get out of bed?Who would pay for my subscriptions? He woke me this morning to say he was dropping his 5 year old son off this morning, instead of this night with his mother, he used the excuse, that he thought I needed a break. I thought, hmm does that mean he has made plans for himself this evening. He had mentioned earlier inthe week running into an old friend at costco, and they had invited him over to play video games. While it may sound like he was trying to be nice to me, that's not the way he works. Either he made plans, or he thought I was unable to take care of Alex. Many times I feel like he only keeps me around to watch his kids. Was he showing me he didn't need me? He knows I feel this way. I have voiced it. The usual response is 'think what you want, your gonna think it anyway".
My husband called from work today, he's at a new job.He told me his supervisor is one of those grumpy old men that seem to yell all the time, but usually don't mean anything by it. He said the guy yelled at him, and one of the other guys told the sup, you are suppose to encourage the new guy, not hurt his feelings. He looked up and said, ( my husband) don't worry about it, I have no feelings, drives my wife crazy. Everybody laughed. He thought this was funny enough to share with me. I didn't. I thought "sad but true" he has tuned out to me. He is the only person I know in Alaska and it doesn't matter to him anymore if I say I'm hurting. He acts like I said the sky is blue. If I try to say something about how I'm feeling he says " I know, I'm the bad guy like usual" than turns over and goes to sleep. I am alone again It's starting to affect my personality. There is nothing to look forward to any more. I am a nuise on his neck. My plac is just within these four walls, It dosen't matter if I cry. I ca't effect a change. Last night I went as far as to say,Why did you let me divorce someone that loved me, if you weren't going to? He said the grass is always greener on the otherside, don't let the door hit you in the ass. He knows I have no money, and no where to go, My mother constantly reminds me, to not aske bad questions, and to play nice or make up, because there are no alternatives. Meaning no where for me to go. He went to sleep after that. I actually looked online at womens shelters. But he's not abusive. How long will it take before he kicks me out? What would I do, when I can barely get out of bed?Who would pay for my subscriptions? He woke me this morning to say he was dropping his 5 year old son off this morning, instead of this night with his mother, he used the excuse, that he thought I needed a break. I thought, hmm does that mean he has made plans for himself this evening. He had mentioned earlier inthe week running into an old friend at costco, and they had invited him over to play video games. While it may sound like he was trying to be nice to me, that's not the way he works. Either he made plans, or he thought I was unable to take care of Alex. Many times I feel like he only keeps me around to watch his kids. Was he showing me he didn't need me? He knows I feel this way. I have voiced it. The usual response is 'think what you want, your gonna think it anyway".
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