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 | Hi bduck40: I wish to extend a prayer, wish and thought your way. I also have been in a relationship with a bi-person spouse. The decision to leave him was a very painful one, but I felt my own life being destroyed and the quality of it deteriorating to such a degree that the only thing I could do was leave! I hope I don't have to spend the rest of my days here on earth regretting have stayed in this relationship for twenty five years. My sons are so confused about who is actually telling the truth about "who is actually mentally ill" that I don't know if the nightmare will ever end. I have so much sympathy, empathy for my spouse, but honestly, I had to get to the place where I realized that his terrible childhood was and is not my responsibilty to "help". I nearly lost my own sanity over the "stuff" he has done to me, including forcing me to do things against my will, in the name of God. You cannot, or maybe you can understand the "craziness" I felt. He is a very manipulative person. He manipulated a women psychologist into believing that "I was not being submissive" and that I was the one with the problem. I finally went to a man psychologist, who I owe my very life to. Although I did the soul work, which was very very hard, because of my belief system, I now (having gotten out) for the first time in my life am experiencing some restful nights and finally some peace. However, he is so distraught over my divorcing him that he currently moved into a rental to be "close to his kids" but he is using the kids to continue to stalk me and even manipulated the bank teller into closing my youngest sons bank account and took that money too. I have lived a life of hell, I didn't know for the longest time what it was. I just chalked it up to "his horrible childhood". His own family members are so afraid of him that they aren't willing to accept his illness either for fear that he will come after them. I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. My father is also bi-polar so I have never, until now, known a normal life. I pray everyday for those who are suffering with the sadness of those having lived with or currently living with a person with bi-polar. The thing you must ask yourself is: What is my limit? How much can I truly put up? If you feel like you have been put on this earth to help your spouse than more power to you, I however realized that it is not my "responsibility" to "help" him heal. My spouse does not accept responsibility for there being anything wrong. On one occassion in twenty five years he admitted to being "twisted". Grace & Peace to you and yours, BPPW |
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