okperez1
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| Gender: | Female |
| Birthdate: | 03/27/1964 |
| City: | right now in PR |
| Occupation: | disability |
| Online Status | OFFLINE |
| Member Since | 09/13/2007 06:19:59 |
| Last Online | 08/23/2008 08:26:52 |
| Rank | New Member |
| A little about me: | I am not sure how much this page will hold. So I guess a little about me will have to be short. Well, I am bi-polar, PTSD, Agoraphobic, Panic disorder, I guess as strange as this sounds, I was diagnosed at the age of 17, my Dad took me to a pdoc and that was her first impression. That was in 1980. She was a smart lady. So I have had a lot of time to work on myself, did I??? Nooooo, why should I, I was superwoman, young pretty, funny, smart, HA HA HA what an inflated ego I had, I am on disability, that lack of stress of working has helped alot. I raised three children by myself, no family support, they just dis owned me cause they figured I was the black sheep. I guess they thought I like what I did wrong. they did not understand the concept that this is a disease and we can not control our impulses. Any way, I think that I can help others since I have had this for so long, I am no expert, I still manic, I still act out, I still get depressed, but I understand my triggers now, and I cope much better than before. I have been on every med known to man. But there are new ones everyday!!! I still pray to God for a cure. I still thank God for everyday I get to be here.(I had a few stupid attempts at suicide)I look forward to meeting everyone. and I thought maybe these song lyrics kind of describe us bi-polars. they are Christina Aguileras not mine. Kudos to you. Christina,you read my mind!! Thanks for listening Kelley Look at me, You may think you see who i really am But you'll never know me Everyday its as if I play a part Now i see if i wear a mask I can fool the world but i cannot fool my heart Who is that girl i see staring straight back at me when will my reflection show who i am inside I am now in a world where i have to hide my heart and what i believe in but somehow i will show the world what's inside my heart and be loved for who i am Who is that girl i see staring straight back at me why is my reflection someone i don't know must i pretend that im someone else for all time when will my reflection show who i am inside There's a heart that must be free to fly that burns with a need to know the reason why why must we all conceal what we think how we feel must there be a secret me i'm forced to hide I won't pretend that i'm someone else for all time when will my reflection show who i am inside when will my reflection show who i am inside |
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"I am a rapid cycle bi-polar,with PTSD and panic attacks"
"I am a rapid cycle bi-polar,with PTSD and panic attacks"
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| it's hard dealing with our past, but deal with it we must, as that is part of what made us who we are. Hugs Carmen |
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| Diary Description: | MY own life they way I see me, the way I see the world, the way I feel or dont feel. | ||
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Having good days
For about a week or two I have been feeling quite normal, Not really sure if its normal, I am so rarely there. But My biggest clue is I can thin...
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| 30 September 2007 | Is anyone here tonite? | General & Support | 137 |
| 30 September 2007 | Advice plz | General & Support | 318 |
| 30 September 2007 | How many of you are able to hold down a job? | General & Support | 1315 |
| 23 September 2007 | He never came home... | General & Support | 400 |
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| 22 September 2007 | Enlighten me please! | General & Support | 206 |
| 22 September 2007 | bipolar and my wife | General & Support | 367 |
| 22 September 2007 | Am I in love or is it mania? | Introductions & Personal Stories | 463 |
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