beckyw
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| Rank | Member |
| Online Status | OFFLINE |
| Member Since | 06/26/2008 06:13 PM |
| Last Online | 10/31/2010 02:49 PM |
| Gender: | Female |
| State: | Texas |
| Occupation: | getting depression under control! |
| A little about me: | Born & raised here in Tx, have an identical twin sister, used to be a legal secretary, started a weimaraner dog rescue organization back in the early 90's, rescued over 200 of the gray babies, am recently widowed to love of life, have lots of health/mental issues. I loved to hike in woods and go camping. Don't know what I want to do at this time. Hope to "edit" with great details at some point! |
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| I want to wish you a Wonderful Happy Valentines Day =D I will be pampering myself lol its what i do when im single :) Big hugs!! |
| HAPPY VALENTINES GAME IN DEPRESSION GROUP!! Go to thread saying Valentines Game!! List up to 5 members that have really touched your heart, and send them a hug of appreciation every day until the 14th of February!! It will feel so good to know you are cared about and let others know how they have helped and supported you. COME AND PLAY, its easy, just send hugs to the special people you choose to make us all feel better in many ways!! Happy Valentines To all, I kind of added more than 5 , but you can too if you dont mind sending hugs when you are able through the day!!HAVE FUN, COME JOIN IN AND SMILE Each Time you get a hug!! Hope to see you there!! Thinking of you, Patty |
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Today is the beginning of a milestone for me. I actually got my money out of that bank & was able to deposit into another bank. My fingers are crossed that there's no screw-up anywhere. Something good has happened!!!
Well, that was a while ago ... today 8/7/08 ... I'm so incredibly confused with what to do with my life. I sometimes am so lonely for my Michael that I just want to die & be laid to rest next to him ... but then unless my death came "naturally" I would hurt so many people. I do have a responsibility for a life ... my sweet darling ... champion of agility ... Niki. She's already lost her original owner due to a horrible disease. Her breeder called me to see if I were interested last year because Niki was used to be the only dog ... she loves all other dogs & people ... she just wouldn't be happy in her breeder's household full of boarders & other weims, etc. Niki will be 13 this month ... a milestone (sorta) for a big dog. She's the love of my life ... she makes me laugh & makes me get out of the house & shows me love. I miss my husband so much ... I don't know what the rest of my life is supposed to be ... who am I?? ... I want Mike back. But ... thru it all ... I take one second, moment, hour & day at a time. I am sometimes amazed at how GOOD I feel in the mornings when I walk Niki (she just came to find me ... she was sound asleep) ... no one understands how the love of this dog has kept me alive. I've lost my two boy weims within the last 6 years ... I don't feel Michael in the house ... but I feel either Logan or Jake giving me a nudge on the butt. I see Michael in my dreams... sometimes. I'm not quite understanding that after 25 years together that he wouldn't be more visible to me. Oh well ... he probably knows what a scardy cat I am . I am that ... on well ... just feels good to vent ... my twin is already horrified for me & my stepfamily is old and sick ... I just need to be thankful for what I have.
Today is the beginning of a milestone for me. I actually got my money out of that bank & was able to deposit into another bank. My fingers are crossed that there's no screw-up anywhere. Something good has happened!!!
Well, that was a while ago ... today 8/7/08 ... I'm so incredibly confused with what to do with my life. I sometimes am so lonely for my Michael that I just want to die & be laid to rest next to him ... but then unless my death came "naturally" I would hurt so many people. I do have a responsibility for a life ... my sweet darling ... champion of agility ... Niki. She's already lost her original owner due to a horrible disease. Her breeder called me to see if I were interested last year because Niki was used to be the only dog ... she loves all other dogs & people ... she just wouldn't be happy in her breeder's household full of boarders & other weims, etc. Niki will be 13 this month ... a milestone (sorta) for a big dog. She's the love of my life ... she makes me laugh & makes me get out of the house & shows me love. I miss my husband so much ... I don't know what the rest of my life is supposed to be ... who am I?? ... I want Mike back. But ... thru it all ... I take one second, moment, hour & day at a time. I am sometimes amazed at how GOOD I feel in the mornings when I walk Niki (she just came to find me ... she was sound asleep) ... no one understands how the love of this dog has kept me alive. I've lost my two boy weims within the last 6 years ... I don't feel Michael in the house ... but I feel either Logan or Jake giving me a nudge on the butt. I see Michael in my dreams... sometimes. I'm not quite understanding that after 25 years together that he wouldn't be more visible to me. Oh well ... he probably knows what a scardy cat I am . I am that ... on well ... just feels good to vent ... my twin is already horrified for me & my stepfamily is old and sick ... I just need to be thankful for what I have.
| Title | Date | Views | Comments |
| Intensive Outpatient Psychiatric Program | 08/23/2008 | 199 | 0 |
| 8/8/08 | 08/08/2008 | 175 | 0 |
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