|Member Since||07/11/2011 03:41 PM|
|Last Online||11/18/2011 02:12 PM|
|Country:||United States of America|
|Occupation:||stay @ home mommy anf wife|
|A little about me:||I am now 26 years of age with a husbad and 2 year old son. I have dealt with quite a few traunas in my past..being raped, parents divorcing, being split up from my brother and sisters, whom all developed addictions and had some tyoe of mentak illness. Then my mom and stepdad were killed by a drunk driver and that's when my immediate family developed the worst of their addictions. I being the youngest ttol care of my dad during all this trying ti keep him strong but instead we ended up basically using and pitying ourselves day in/out until I got into trouble with the law and was forced to seek help. I have Bi Polar II, Panic Disorder, PTSD, horrible depression and mood swings but I guess that ties into the BI Polar. - use to be suicidal and was hospitialiized for that and I did my fair share of partying and becane addicted to opiates and benzos. I was lwgally prescribed both but they would last 3 days. I am proud to say I'm off the opiates for good but I have to have the benzos just to make ir thru the day. I even moved hours away from my family to get away from their drama and addictions..and yes they are all treatment resistant because they don't want to get better. Anyway so I recently got married like I mentioned and realized I married a compulsive gambler who will leave me home with no car, phone, and will stay gone days on end so I keep getting sicker. I have only ever been on anti-depressants- prozac 60mg for a year but I've tried em all since I was 16. Now I'm om a pile of pills.
Prozac-80mg a day
Trileptal-300mg twice a day
Ambien- 10mg @ bedtime
Topamax 50mg- bedtime
Xanax- 1mg 3 a day ( which I have been on since I was 16 and I swear I'm immune to it. I don't have insurance so when I panic I go to ER. My doc is cutting me down to .5 twice a day next month. :/ I would like to talk thru blackberry messenger if anyone is interested or e-mail. Please let me know!!
|A life spent making mistakes is not only more honorable, but more useful than a life spent doing nothing.
George Bernard Shaw
|Wishing you greetings of health, happiness and success on this Thanksgiving and always.
|For my Bipolar Support group friends:
"We are what our thoughts have made us; so take care about what you think. Words are secondary. Thoughts live; they travel far."
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