p8ntballgrl
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| Hits | 330 |
| Online Status | OFFLINE |
| Member Since | 02/12/2008 21:10:34 |
| Last Online | 07/08/2008 16:02:54 |
| Last Updated | 05/08/2008 22:10:48 |
| Rank | Member |
My Ribbon
| Ribbon | Date | Why I wear this ribbon | |
 | Green Ribbon | 02/12/2008 | I wear this ribbon so that I never forget I'm not alone in this battle from bipolar. |
General
| Gender: | Female |
| City: | winder |
| State: | Georgia |
| A little about me: | I'm 36 and just found out 2 yrs ago that I'm manic depressive and for lack of better word bipolar. On top of that I have severe anxiety attacks. Otherwise I'm pretty normal...whatever that really means. I'm very athletic and since I'm paranoid about everyone, paintball is a GREAT way to release all the frustration of the everyday life of a bipolar....lol |
My Hugs
My Support Groups
p8ntballgrl is a member of the following Support Groups:
| Group | Member Since |
| Bipolar Support Group | 12 February 2008 |
| Panic Attacks Support Group | 20 April 2008 |
My Diary
| Diary Description: | Ok so today is the first day I will start this journey over again. I finally heard back from the pysch. I have to drop by and fill out paperwork again since it's been so long since I've seen him. I lied to my office manager and told her it was for my orthodontist. I hate that part of my disorder. I feel that everyone is looking at me like they know all my deepest darkest secrets. Let me just say this now for the record....."I DON'T WANT TO KILL MYSELF!!" but sometimes I find myself thinking about my life insurance policy and thinking of how my family could use it to better themselves. I love them dearly and I would never want to hurt them in anyway but I can't for the life of me figure out why in the hell i think this way. | ||
| Diary Statistics: | Total entries: 43 | Total comments: 28 | Total combined hits: 1489 |
| – Monday, July 07 2008 – | |
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One day you will......
You feel like you're falling backwards Like you're slippin thru the cracks, like no one would even notice if you left this town and neve...
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| – Sunday, June 15 2008 – | |
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been gone for a while....lol
ok so I've been gone for a while. nothing too serious just meds giving me fits again. I was trying to get disability but said it could take up to ...
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| – Thursday, May 08 2008 – | |
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It's my birthday
Today is my 37th birthday, so I've changed my pic to reflect how I feel about birthdays.....ha ha ha
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My Lucid Letter
I'm writting this letter today because I seem to have all my ducks in one row. nowadays it seems my mind is always in high gear but it nevers seem...
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| – Thursday, May 01 2008 – | |
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Feeling pretty good today.
Ok I diffently have to tell the doc about all the restlessness and the fact if i take a weightloss pill I feel like a real person again even with my m...
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| – Sunday, April 27 2008 – | |
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Only lasted an hour.....
Ok so i decided I wanted to try the flea market today. I figure it was Sunday so maybe it wouldn't be so crowded...ha ha yeah right. Well, this is...
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| – Thursday, April 24 2008 – | |
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Don't want to be here anymore.
Ok i've done the doctor thing, i've done the med thing. i have been all by myself for about 48 hours now and i'm done. I don't know w...
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| – Tuesday, April 22 2008 – | |
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back to the pdoc tomorrow
So i have another appointment tomorrow with the pdoc. and already my hands shake when i think about it too long like right now...ha ha I have to...
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| – Monday, April 21 2008 – | |
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The attack.....
It's any old day and there is a feeling deep down. It could be hunger or it could be "the attack". Control your breathing, in thru your ...
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| – Sunday, April 13 2008 – | |
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Another lonely night.
I'm in the writing mood. I always get like that when I'm very depressed. I wanna cry and pour my heart out but to who? How many times have I u...
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My Forum Posts
| Recent Forum Posts | |||
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| Date | Subject | Category | Hits |
| 08 July 2008 | Anyone awake July 8th no topic | Lounge - Off topic discussions | 189 |
| 08 July 2008 | Anyone awake July 8th no topic | Lounge - Off topic discussions | 189 |
| 07 July 2008 | Anyone awake July 7th no topic | Lounge - Off topic discussions | 148 |
| 07 July 2008 | Introduce myself | Introductions & Personal Stories | 85 |
| 20 June 2008 | SSDI newly applying | General & Support | 82 |
| 15 June 2008 | wanting to meet other bipolars out there | General & Support | 160 |
| 18 May 2008 | bf thinks i\'m just depressed not bipolar | General & Support | 95 |
| 17 May 2008 | bf thinks i\'m just depressed not bipolar | General & Support | 95 |
| 17 May 2008 | bf thinks i\'m just depressed not bipolar | General & Support | 95 |
| 17 May 2008 | bf thinks i\'m just depressed not bipolar | General & Support | 95 |
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