darrkangel

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"When I first came to MDJ, I was in a very dark place, and feeling quite alone, I don't know how I found this site, but I have been very grateful ever since, all of you have offered insight to the illness of Bipolar and the other things going on with me, being here has allowed me to find friends, and to feel safe in discussing things that I would never have shared before.

I believe it has also offered me the chance to reach out and help others. A simple Thank you, is all that I have to offer, to this site and to the wonderful people here." (carmen33)

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darrkangel

Rank	Member
Online Status	OFFLINE
Member Since	06/13/2011 07:46 AM
Last Online	03/17/2013 09:31 PM

Gender:	Female
Birthdate:	08/28/1977

Website:	http://www.facebook.com/darrk.angell.9
Blog:	http://darkfallenangell.blogspot.com/
A little about me:	(Please DO NOT sending bulky hugs if it's not personal) I come to MDJunction because my long-term inferiority and misery. I'm very disgraceful. I was born, and live in underworld (this is how i think).i'm feel soaked,heavy inside, yet i have to entertain the world pretending everything is fine. I was taught to hate(by my mum towards my dad), to feel low about myself. I was caned badly and forced to eat that i couldn't eat and walked to school. since I started schooling at 7 years old, I was told that I was stupid in front people, and threatened to quit schooling with the result less that 80%. I was being neglected when I wanted to discuss my problems with them. I was cursed by my family and laughed by `friends' when I was going to backpacking. I dont know why I m born? There was a voice inside saying that I shouldnt be born? I say i am a fool bcz i meet many people much younger but much wiser than me. I feel that i am so far backwards. I am too coward to end my life. when a bastard tried to show me he was powerful enough to end my life with a single hand, and the moment everything almost blacked out, suddenly i felt happy this day had finally came, someone was helping me to go there. I felt a sudden bliss and stop fighting despite of right and wrong injustice.Well, there are some cases where there are no justice to me. THis is the taste of being solo. I started to realize recently - Most of the time, i have a very low self esteem...i cant be sure what i said/done was right until recognized by others. so i am easily confused...i am quite talented but i never know my right especially in job, i always dont know my own value. I always been underpaid (perhaps I look younger than my age, perhaps i never try to impress/show off to the boss) I dont fight for myself boz i try to be in peace and believe what's goes round, comes around.

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	"i indulge in sleep wanna escape from this world n wish nvr come back to this dimension again"
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2steveb gave me a Hug 05/18/2013 02:46 AM
	tipical, it just starts to get warm, turn the heating off then ice age starts again? :P joys of uk hope you have a good weekend and alls good for you
sarahtroy gave me a Hug 05/11/2013 11:18 AM
	"If you keep sending away every person who challenges you, you'll never GROW. Some people are in your life to sharpen you." ~ Mandy Hale
2steveb gave me a Hug 05/11/2013 04:42 AM
	hi spring has sprung, might have bounced off a bit but hey its here sun tan locoing at the ready hope you have a good relax this weekend

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