Zahc
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| Rank | Senior Member |
| Online Status | OFFLINE |
| Member Since | 05/14/2011 10:37 PM |
| Last Online | 06/19/2013 08:49 AM |
| Gender: | Male |
| Birthdate: | 01/11/1954 |
| City: | New Port Richey |
| State: | Florida |
| Country: | United States of America |
| Occupation: | N/A...disabled since 2002. |
| Blog: | http://pinkgiraffeadventures.blogspot.com |
| A little about me: | 'Zahc' 59 yr. old male. Have a 14 yr old Border collie mix. Disabled since 2002. effective 2005. Dx's: since 2002: 1)Acute Anxiety with Panic attacks; Severe Depression with Agoraphobia. 2)Numerous fractured ribs, and vertebral compression fractures at T-3-5, from frequent falls. 3)COPD; Orthostatic Hypertension: Migraines. 4)Apnea; RLS. 5)Slight episodes of CHF. 6)Diabetes. 7)Fibromyalgia; Lupus; connective tissue disorder. 8)Diabetic retinopathy. 9)Diabetic Neuropathy. 10)1-3+ edema in feet/legs to knees. 11)RA. 12) Chronic fatigue; Chronic pain Syndrome. Hx. of asthema; bronchitis; pneumonia. Am now on a bucket-load of medications which I detest. Am housebound 98% of time, except for visits to doctor's offices. My dog is my best friend. I no longer watch television. Am on oxygen 24/7, and can only walk with cane. I no longer can drive a car. Though I am grateful for it, I have to live on a disability income that's at least a third of what I once earned. I now require assistance with bathing, or getting in or out of a car. I am on medicare, since 2005; Medicaid is a laugh. And I am always broke--it seems--after the first week of the month. However, any time I need an extra shower, or my lawn mowed, or my house tidied up, or my laundry done, or groceries bought & prescriptions picked up, I have to pay for these 'services' out of pocket. And while I no longer moan, "Why me ?". I am bitter, and in almost constant pain. My sleep is erratic with pain. One day is about like the next. And, as I age, my symptoms just get worse. I still consider myself to be a good listener, and always enjoyed it if I could help others. I now do nothing to earn my keep as an human being. And I hate it. Sometimes, I wish I came equipped with an 'off' button. If the Past was awful, the Present almost unbearable, I cannot even begin to imagine a Future that is not dismal in the extreme. Thanks for time at the podium. Please take care all. 'Zahc' |
My Awareness Ribbons
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"Because I well know how debilitating and life-altering Chronic Pain is, and can be." |
"I wear this ribbon for all the criplling Migraines I have had, and, as I am disabled, seek to be a voice for the disabled." |
"I fully know--first-hand--what it feels like to be not only short of breath, but in having to labor for each breath, hoping it will lead to the next." |
"I choose to wear this ribbon in memory of my late mother, who--in her early eighties--was diagnosed with breast cancer; had surgery, and radiation, and---after five years towards the natural end of her life at 91, was a cancer survivor." |
"After having been diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, Lupus, and Chronic Pain Syndrome, I know know what inescapable pain is, and how it has changed my life completely." |
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"I choose to wear a teal ribbon as well, to validate my 2002, psych. diagnoses of Acute Panic Attacks, and Severe Depression with Agoraphobia." |
"I choose this ribbon as my late mother had diabetes Type II, as--now--do I." |
"I have 'child-onset' asthma, and require inhalors and nebulizer treatments." |
"I coose to wear the 'black ribbon', for my sleep-disorders. Thanks you. 'Zahc'" |
"I choose to wear this 'green ribbon' to vallidate my Anxiety and Panic Attacks; my Severe Depression, and Agoraphobia.
Zahc'" |
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 | Please feel free to post in the Arthritis & FMS combination Support Group! I hope that everyone is doing well and your aches and pains are tolerable. Gentle hugs to you! :) |
| I got to read a little about you. here's a hug and a little strength being sent your way! Thanks again for reaching out in my discussion... <3 Amanda |
 | Zahc, may your pains be less this night - and may tomorrow be bright and sunny. Peace and blessings! Praying for you. |
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My Diary
'The Postern Of Fate is but your own front door'
Once the title of a failed blog I attempted, which can still be found, I believe, somewhere lost in Google Land, which I may try to resurrect, it is now a collection of thoughts, ideas, and dreams, very much influenced by the Lupus/Fibro/Chronic Pain I have; this enterprize--too--may fail, and I very much crave your kind support, truthful comments, and encouragement as I try to find my way, and--in doing so-- hope to offer the same to all who suffer even as I do.
There can be no pretention; there will be no lies, nor deception. Or false hopes.
In search of honesty and awareness, I can only offer up my prayers, thoughts, aspirations.
The 'Postern Of Fate' is but a gate, beyond which lay the uncertainties of the real world; inside lies the refuge, the comfort, security and sanctuary that we make of our homes, to guard against the unknowable.
All I have to offer is my limited and personal insight. Though, I readily offer--too--a ready ear, and--I hope, an open heart.
And--as always--I wish all 'well days' and peaceful nights.
Love,
'Zahc'
Once the title of a failed blog I attempted, which can still be found, I believe, somewhere lost in Google Land, which I may try to resurrect, it is now a collection of thoughts, ideas, and dreams, very much influenced by the Lupus/Fibro/Chronic Pain I have; this enterprize--too--may fail, and I very much crave your kind support, truthful comments, and encouragement as I try to find my way, and--in doing so-- hope to offer the same to all who suffer even as I do.
There can be no pretention; there will be no lies, nor deception. Or false hopes.
In search of honesty and awareness, I can only offer up my prayers, thoughts, aspirations.
The 'Postern Of Fate' is but a gate, beyond which lay the uncertainties of the real world; inside lies the refuge, the comfort, security and sanctuary that we make of our homes, to guard against the unknowable.
All I have to offer is my limited and personal insight. Though, I readily offer--too--a ready ear, and--I hope, an open heart.
And--as always--I wish all 'well days' and peaceful nights.
Love,
'Zahc'
| Title | Date | Views | Comments |
| "Surely I MUST Have Money In the Account...I STILL Have Checks!!!" | 06/15/2013 | 78 | 4 |
| "A Jar Of Pickles" | 06/09/2013 | 114 | 3 |
| "First...You Must Forgive Yourself" | 06/05/2013 | 207 | 1 |
| "A Hope...A Dream...A Plagent Prayer" | 06/01/2013 | 132 | 3 |
| "Euripides Just Might Be On To Something Here" | 05/29/2013 | 96 | 1 |
| "YOU Are The Wonder, YOU Are The Light !" | 05/09/2013 | 164 | 3 |
| "Hurting...Hopeless...Helpless...Hollow" | 05/03/2013 | 232 | 3 |
| "When There Are No Pills To Take" | 04/13/2013 | 346 | 5 |
| "Nocturnal, 'Omissions', And Other Ironies" | 03/30/2013 | 248 | 3 |
| "Its Two: Three-Four A.M...." | 03/10/2013 | 264 | 2 |
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Edema Support Group
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Fibromyalgia Support Group
FMS & Lupus Support Group
FMS and Migraine Headaches Support Group
Insomnia Support Group
Lupus Support Group
Men with Lupus Support Group
Obsessive Compulsive Disorder Support Group
Optic Nerve Hypoplasia Support Group
Panic Attacks Support Group
Peripheral Neuropathy Support Group
Permanently Disabled Support Group
Post Traumatic Stress Support Group
Restless Leg Syndrome Support Group
Rheumatoid Arthritis Support Group
Rosacea Support Group
Sexual Abuse Support Group
Sleep Disorders Support Group
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Aging Support Group
Agoraphobia Support Group
Agoraphobics Moving Forward Support Group
Anxiety Disorders Support Group
Arthritis & FMS combination Support Group
Arthritis Support Group
Baby Boomers Retirement Support Group
Back Pain Support Group
Benzodiazepine Withdrawal Support Group
Candidiasis Support Group
Cellulitis Support Group
Chronic Fatigue Syndrome Support Group
Chronic Headache Support Group
Chronic Pain Support Group
Chronic-Intractable Pain Support Group
COPD Support Group
Depression & Chronic Pain Support Group
Depression and FMS Support Group
Diabetes Type 2 Support Group
Diabetic Neuropathy Support Group
Edema Support Group
Emphysema Support Group
Fibro and Chronic Fatigue Support Group
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Fibromyalgia Support Group
FMS & Lupus Support Group
FMS and Migraine Headaches Support Group
Insomnia Support Group
Lupus Support Group
Men with Lupus Support Group
Obsessive Compulsive Disorder Support Group
Optic Nerve Hypoplasia Support Group
Panic Attacks Support Group
Peripheral Neuropathy Support Group
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Restless Leg Syndrome Support Group
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Rosacea Support Group
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