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Musings on (In)Sanity
My exBPSO writes on an open forum from time to time. Since it is public, you need no password to get on there, I thought I'd check it out. Part of it in one place says: "And then there are breasts. They're merely lumps of flesh -- some males have larger ones. Yet when I dare to look at an exposed cleavage I almost get vertigo. Silicon Valley has more than one meaning!
Women also, sometimes, find wearing "sexy" undies make them feel more feminine. My girlfriend often wears them at work, not to attract men (how would they know) but to feel good about herself."
I know this "girlfriend" could not be me. I am retired and have not worked for several years. So there is someone else. Whom ever this is, she is in for the same treatment, I am absolutely sure.
I sent the entire piece above to a mutual friend, what I posted above was only part of it, to a mutual friend, someone who has known him longer than I have, who believes it is not true. She wrote "I really don't think this person exists - at least not as a girlfriend to xxxxx. I really don't. My guess is that when he writes on there he can create a character of his choosing. I'm 99% certain there is no other GF, not in the real world." Maybe it is part of his hypomania but maybe it's not. Even I have to say, it is not typical of him. But then hypersexuality is a part of Bipolar. We were a committed couple at the time and most likely engaged.
I am, without a doubt, in a much better financial position than he is because I have a very stable work history. I worked in the same organization for over 30 years. He, on the other hand, worked one place for 5 years and the longest he worked anywhere else was 3 years. There is no doubt in my mind it is because of his Bipolar volatility. At the time of his divorce after a 15 years marriage, he received a lump sum payment of $50,000. I know when I meet him in 2002 it was gone. I've seen him go out and buy expensive things for himself when I am not with him, things he has no business spending money on. What he does is take me to look at things with him and then goes back and buys the expensive one he truly cannot afford.
I know he was divorced in 2000. I know his ex was the victim of his rages in public more than once. I know that after they divorced he wanted to get back together but when he went by her place one night, and there was another man there, he actually punched the guy. He should have been arrested. She was divorced, for crying out loud. She was free to see whomever she wanted.
Right now, the worst part is trying to figure out how I became the worst person in the wold as I have been so supportive, loving, and generous towards him. I just don't get it.
Musings on (In)Sanity
My exBPSO writes on an open forum from time to time. Since it is public, you need no password to get on there, I thought I'd check it out. Part of it in one place says: "And then there are breasts. They're merely lumps of flesh -- some males have larger ones. Yet when I dare to look at an exposed cleavage I almost get vertigo. Silicon Valley has more than one meaning!
Women also, sometimes, find wearing "sexy" undies make them feel more feminine. My girlfriend often wears them at work, not to attract men (how would they know) but to feel good about herself."
I know this "girlfriend" could not be me. I am retired and have not worked for several years. So there is someone else. Whom ever this is, she is in for the same treatment, I am absolutely sure.
I sent the entire piece above to a mutual friend, what I posted above was only part of it, to a mutual friend, someone who has known him longer than I have, who believes it is not true. She wrote "I really don't think this person exists - at least not as a girlfriend to xxxxx. I really don't. My guess is that when he writes on there he can create a character of his choosing. I'm 99% certain there is no other GF, not in the real world." Maybe it is part of his hypomania but maybe it's not. Even I have to say, it is not typical of him. But then hypersexuality is a part of Bipolar. We were a committed couple at the time and most likely engaged.
I am, without a doubt, in a much better financial position than he is because I have a very stable work history. I worked in the same organization for over 30 years. He, on the other hand, worked one place for 5 years and the longest he worked anywhere else was 3 years. There is no doubt in my mind it is because of his Bipolar volatility. At the time of his divorce after a 15 years marriage, he received a lump sum payment of $50,000. I know when I meet him in 2002 it was gone. I've seen him go out and buy expensive things for himself when I am not with him, things he has no business spending money on. What he does is take me to look at things with him and then goes back and buys the expensive one he truly cannot afford.
I know he was divorced in 2000. I know his ex was the victim of his rages in public more than once. I know that after they divorced he wanted to get back together but when he went by her place one night, and there was another man there, he actually punched the guy. He should have been arrested. She was divorced, for crying out loud. She was free to see whomever she wanted.
Right now, the worst part is trying to figure out how I became the worst person in the wold as I have been so supportive, loving, and generous towards him. I just don't get it.
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