|Member Since||11/03/2009 04:10 AM|
|Last Online||11/28/2011 03:34 PM|
|A little about me:||Hello people .
I thought it was about time I updated this .
My name is Wendy ,i'm 41 and i'm here because I have agoraphobia and depression .I'm not sure which caused which but ive had anxieties around people ,periods of black moods and other symptoms on and off for years .despite that I only started getting help last year when I had a total melt down ,became suicidal and realised somthing had to be done .
I was a chef in my former life but had to give up work just over a year ago ,which has been hard to come to terms with .
Right now I cant get more than 50 feet away from the front door alone without panic setting in .And I have trouble with things like phones ,crowds ,speaking to strangers etc even when a safe person is with me .
Luckily for me i'm married to a guy who puts up with all this without complaint .He has had 4 discs taken out of his back and osteo arthritis in both knees so he is in cronic pain all the time .We reckon we probably make one fully functioning person between us :-)and do our best to fill in each others gaps .
Coming here gives me place where I can be honest about my illness and how it affects life without anyone asking stupid questions or treating me like its my IQ thats the problem (its amazing how many people do that )
Ironicly ,the people here are probably the most intelligent ,funny ,compasionate and tallented humans ive ever met .
|"An arrow can only be shot by pulling it backward. So when life is dragging you back with difficulties, it means that it is going to launch you into something better." Fasten your seatbelt and enjoy your flight!
|If I attend without reservation to my experience of loss, it will pass. Deny and avoid psychic pain it will be mine forever. All winds come to rest, after the storm, and once still reveal a simple peace: you are still here and life is all around you. The universe is at your door, with it plenitude of small and large mysteries, your for the taking.
Getting to this place may happen without help, or it may require considerable help. If you don’t like how you feel, do something. If that fails, try something else. If you are out of ideas or faith in yourself, get help.
While you are working your way through the losses, never forget that we are fundamentally social animals. We NEED each other, and we must respect this and retain our connections like the lifelines they are. These links to others won’t magically remove our losses, but they will help us walk with and through our grief. The sun will rise again, and the flowers return. It well may not be today, but it does happen and in that you can indeed have faith. When your own faith falters, borrow a little from those close to you – they won’t mind.
|Wanted you to all know that I miss you! I pray that everyone is doing alright or at least hanging in there the best they can. My meds are still trying to stabilize so I am a bit quiet yet. I am feeling much better than I had for most of this last year. That is always a bonus!
Huge hugs to ALL of you and thank you for being here for me. It makes all the difference in the world sometimes. :)
WRITE IT DOWN..IT MIGHT MAKE SOME SENSE
WRITE IT DOWN..IT MIGHT MAKE SOME SENSE
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