reachingout
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| Member Since | 08/15/2009 11:03 PM |
| Last Online | 09/22/2010 05:48 PM |
| Gender: | Female |
| A little about me: | So i'm thinking that every time some one reads this they may not understand that im really reaching out cus i really do need it so i wanted to tell my story so maybe more people will talk to me. So as a little girl my mom letf my dad for what ever reason cus i cant get the reason right.. but two years later she had my little sister and met a man named jeff... and a year later they had my brother. Then when he was three his nose was bitten off by a dog and my step-dad started drinking- again after being a recovering alcohlic.... He didnt "like" my moms fam. so i never really got to see them after my grandparents helped raised me till he got there, and so i had his family... and he continued to drink but we lived in a house so we never had to deal with them doing drugs down stairs... so the summer before i went to high school my mom had another baby and we moved into a trailer and had to start dealing with them... and by october i couldnt take every thing the drinking the abuse (emotional, physical, sexual, and mental) and all my family is leaning on me at 14... i couldnt take it and i admited myself to the mental hospital were they mentioned border-line personality and put me on zoloft.... not good, i got out and my family still had problems and tryed to take me back to the hospital were i for the first time i fought back and i went to my grandmas after not needing to be in the hospital.. then my first love left me and i begain drinking alot and i was rapped two times different mounths by a student at my grandmas school... by the time i told some one and filled a police report nothing happened, so i tryed to kill my self, and i was at school were i was going to leave my good bye letters for my locker partner and best friend.. but i ended up telling some of my friends who stoped me and asked why i was crying.. so i lived and they sent me home stating that i just had a bad day.. so me and my first love ended up getting back together, and breaking up were i drank alot of vodka and jumped out of his new girlfriends car.. then i went to talk to a therapist who told me im bipolor, so i begain smoking weed alot cus it made me eat and sleep like i wanted to and it helped me forget every thing iv blamed my self for like my aunts drug addiction, the loss of her kids, my moms batered wife syndrome, and my grandads death... so i ended up living with my father and eventualy after drugs, guys, feeling never supported, never going to school one day i meet my husband (i take that back my ex-husband) who changed my life i stopped drugs, went to school and even got a job with him... we went threw some really hard times, then last year we got into a fight and we ended up going to jail and he almost got deported and so now after some more problems he lives in a different state and we strugle with money every day... but i feel as if every thing is my fault and now i feel as if my husband suffers as much as me saying i just dont care what happeneds to me any more and its all my fault... if i just wasnt bipolor... but i am and ive been fighting is for as long as ive could, so im here for more understanding and to not be so alone any more... thanks for takeing the wime to read this....and im here to talk and be a friend... |
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| Hello, To all of my friends, group members, newbee's. Sorry, I haven't been on. My cousin passed away at age 41, we were all very sadden by this loss. Please say a prayer for my family. Now its back to you guys. I found these quotes and I wanted to share. Hugs Dee Remember and I thinking about all of you and wishing you the best. Life isn’t about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself – George Bernard Shaw I have found that if you love life, life will love you back - Arthur Rubinstein Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive and go do it. Because what the world needs is more people who have come alive – Howard Thurman. Life isn’t a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, chocolate in one hand, latte in the other, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming ‘Woohoo WHAT A RIDE’! |
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