as most of you know i will be taking a leave of 4-6 months from MDJ.. Before i wanted to keep it private... I felt talking about it would stress me too much... but a dear buddy ( and resident dodo bird) ... talked about telling my buddies... at first I was stubborn... then after prayer and soul searching... i realized she was right.. (thanks buddy) so below is the dish on what is wrong... The symptoms 1. severe chest pain that radiates in my gut and throat.. 2. vomiting blood... 3. loss of bladder control.. 4. loss of bowel control... 5. Partial loss of vision and hearing.. 5. A trance where i can see and hear but i cant respond... 6. sky rocket sugar levels... 7. internal itching all over... 8. Loss of equillibrium.. (Did i spell that right Deb? ) 9. uncontrolled jerking... and vomiting... 10. more... my muscles and muscle organs have weakend tramendously... Including sadly my heart... At first it was thought to be different things... now they said.. that my stress has become so great... my body is litterily dying... my brain...my heart and my bowels and bladder have weakend and i am ill... and shutting down.. It has gotten so bad.. i am having what i call semi seizures... and vomiting... and losing vision and hearing... At first i kidded around about marketing the weight loss programm... but i was told it wasnt funny... Unless something was done i would surely have a heart attack or something... then i realized how serious it was... i have been lashing out and everything... the thing is at the ones i love the most... then the doctor said outside stress has to leave my life awhile... one doc said...this isnt funny... but joking has always been my way of coping... that Or refusing not to discuss things... but as i said... a friend said i should... (the spoil sport.. ) the strain was too great...some of you have seen my rages... Please forgive me... I have been very ill... I did not know how much until this... So i need to take an MDJ break... Doctore recommendation... I was told if i wasnt strengthend in my heart and etc... i would die... It wasnt funny and nothing to laugh at... so there it all is... doctors and i will decide the treatment... there is talk of a hospital for awhile but i dont want that... i hate hospitals.. But it is prefferable to a mausaleam.. (SP) Deborah Kay where are you i cant spell... i really do have to take an MDJ break... but i hope to be back soon... 4 to 6 months... but it may be more... First I have to strengthen my heart... thanks for the ear... and the shoulder... i realized thet if i cant share this with my friends... well telling a friend secrets is theraputic... besides its stressfull to bear stress alone... LOL kat My friends call me Kat... As a group leader my goal is to lend a shoulder and a hand of friendship... as well as get the same support from some of you... It is not however to give medical advice... I am not a medical professional... and so I cannot play the roll of one... Thanks...
KAT
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