Stress Management Support Group

I don't know what happens to put me in a funky mood. I'm not stressed, I'm not angry. I'm annoyed easily, something that has been happening over the past several days. I have to get a handle on this or it will build to something else.

I have therapy in an hour, maybe I can talk it out there. Maybe this is a healthy thing, IDK. I've had so many new feelings this past year. Learning to accept them, encorperate them into my "personality'? has been complicated, and at times discouraging too. Emotions can be a double edged sword. I can either let them continue in the negative pattern they seem to start with, or find a way to turn them around. It would be so easy to just be bitter, but that is not who or what I am or want for my life!

Maybe this is the time to learn to hone those communication skills? Talk things out rather than hold them inside...I'm just not good at that yet, perhaps it takes practice. I'll think about it and let you know if I come up with any "coping stratagies".

HUGZ AND A TICKLE!

Reba

That sounds really good, Reba. You will develop some new skills! Let us know~

HUGZ

Therapy went really well today...We did talk about my current "feelings and emotions". I tend to discount or under count (that's probably not the right term) what feelings and emotions are. I 'm fairly certain they are different levels of the same thing. Maybe feelings are more transitory or short term, things easily forgotten or dealt with. Emotions can be rapid tho. Like getting annoyed...that I was told today is an emotion.

A componant of stress as well!? And a possible componant of anger.

My Therapist is extatic at the rapid change in me over the past month. Being in this "living" situation has been a very positive thing for me, one where I have left alot of fear, pain, anger, and countless other emotions, go...They haven't left, they have just lost their power. Focusing on todays issues has helped me not to dwell on the past. I can see the now, and a future. The past has it's place, it has held me captive, for so long, and letting go has been a long and painful process. I was in the process of learning to let it go for a long time. Being here just allowed me a different sense of self and security, where I could finally not look at it all the time, a place to gain forward momentum and a firm footing.

I'm babbling!

After talking about what I'm feeling, I realized that all of these emotions are parts of the HUGE emotions I use to feel all of the time. They have sort of spred out, the pieces getting smaller and smaller, more managable. I'm not trying to deal with all of it at once any more! I can see the bigger picture, see the forest thru the trees...

Anyway, I'm not making a whole lot of sense, over tired, but I think you 'll understand what I mean.

I'll write more tomorrow. When my head is clear and fresh! LOL

HUGZ and a TICKLE!

Reba