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11/12/2011 07:40 PM

fear shopping malls?

Trulyhiz
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Hi, I have SAD all my life, and im afraid to go into crowded stores and the shopping mall. I have hard time standing in grocery store checkout lines, sometims I almost faint.

Family get togethers are always hard also, and parties r the worst.

Ive tried to be the fun gal to pull myself out of my shell so to speak, but it just did not work.

I want to be out going, but I just dont seem to have it in me. Maybe I was born to be shy?

Does anyone else feel the same way?Blink

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11/14/2011 07:53 AM
lor
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Hi Trulyhiz, I won't go to shopping malls. I freak out, have panic and I also have a problem with family get together's and parties and driving. I am shy also. You are not alone. I have tried to pull myself out of this. I guess must keep working on taking baby steps. We won't die from this but it feels like it to me with the anxiety. I even don't sleep the night before going to some places and that makes it so much worse for me. Have you tried therapy? This group seems to be not too active and idk, why as I know so many suffer from this.

11/14/2011 08:55 AM
Trulyhiz
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Hi, Lor..Long time ago I went to my family doctor because of SAD, and he just sent me to specialist that basically puts you on meds nothing else. Ive always been shy since i can remember but it got worse as years went by. Since then I had some tramatizing events that effected me greatly and it turned out that I have PTSD and didnt know it. Ive lived with the sympotms since i was 15 and just thought it was me. I always thought something was wrong with me but didnt know what. Even some friends told me I was different. I always feel like a misfit everywheres.

I was sexually abused by a female relative when i was 11, and i repressed for 22 yrs! Then i had dreams and nightmares about it and thought i was going crazy. This lasted for the past 10 yrs not know what was wrong.

Ive been in thepary for 3 months now and on zoloft, sequoel, larazapan. Im doing EMDR too.

Im not scared to drive unless i dont know where im going. I can go into mall, but NOT by myself and i need a safty person like my hubby.

My kids dont know about my PTSD yet, but tonight my hubby is going to have a talk with them. Im scared how they will react.

As you can see my story fits in several forums, PTSD, depression, sexual abuse, social anxiety..ect... I do believe they all are connected to my abuse as a child by father also.

trulySmile


11/14/2011 11:27 AM
lor
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Trulyhiz, Wow, we have so much in common. I also have been sexually abused by a male relative. Have PTSD, alot of other traumatizing events took place in my life.I was physically abused as a child. I can drive sometimes with my daughter. Otherwise I just drive close places depending how nervous I am. I just finally came out and told my daughter about depression,

panic and SA recently. She is 20. She took it well. My son doesn't get it though and thinks I am crazy. Best wishes and hang in there. Smile


11/14/2011 11:47 AM
Trulyhiz
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Yeah it seems like it.. haha Ive had bouts of depression and SAD off and on all my life, didnt have clue what was causing it, till I had meltdown about 3 1/2 months ago when I had two major Ptds triggers in the same day! I stayed in my room for 3 days rolled up in a ball crying my eyes out and zoning out. It was that event that made me go online and look for some help. I knew there was something wrong.

I have 3 kids, 24, 20, 17 g/b/g and two have ADHD (my girls). Right now my kids just think im crazy or odd. Im really scared they not going to understand and reject me, im so afraid. My kids were my whole world, and I tried to do the best i could raising them.

My son hasnt spoken to me in 49 days over a misunderstanding and its killing me cause we been so close. My hubby is going to try talk to him tonight about my problem.

Ya know sometimes my kids think this is my fault that i am the way i am, BUT its not. I didnt ask to be abused half my life.

I dont think my kids going to be supportive, they arent so caring or anything to me right now. I dont know why.

Least I always know i have my husband hes my rock!


12/08/2011 08:58 PM
SainT89
 
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I used to feel uncomfortable around big crowds and in places like malls. A lot of the time I felt people would be staring at me, and sometimes I would go to places where I knew I wouldn't possibly run into people I know.

Nowadays, I don't seem to have that problem, so I guess that's one accomplishment.


12/24/2011 06:48 AM
ohfaithful



Post edited by: kildare56, at: 01/29/2012 02:27 PM

01/01/2012 10:23 AM
kildare56
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I rarely go to a mall. It used to be due to anxiety, but now I just dislike the stores in malls. They seem all the same. I like to find out of the way stores. I love "mom and pop" places.

01/07/2012 10:07 AM
ohfaithful



Post edited by: kildare56, at: 01/29/2012 02:27 PM
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