Sexually abused Bipolar Online Support Group

my story

I was arrested and convicted of marijuna sales and transport.one year sentence. I was 18 years old, with fem features. now, I was with older hardened males.

In a cell , with a few othres, I was ordered to give a blow job,I refused, and was slapped, and hit, I remember the sound of zippers coming down,I closed my eyes, and felt a mans erection pressing into .between my lips, he said just, suck, that is I have to do , is just suck, and they all 4 of them stood in line, and I sucked them all off. and to swallow.

i was scared very very much, and felt so much shame, but, they stopped hitting me,and i had a boyfriend,whom made me give blow jobs to his friends, whenever they wanted.usually when they were playing cards, I could not report this , or I would have been hurt.

my legs were shaved, and I was given womens panties to wear, yes, they sneak those in,and I made a home made skirt from a T shirt.I was terrified of intercourse. this all went on for almost 8 months, til I was releassed, I am still very nervous about this, and it is hard to get this all out.

michael

What happened to you was awful and I am truly sorry you have had to go through. It doesn't matter if your a man, woman or child anybody can be raped or sexually assualted. You did nothing wrong and you this wasn't your fault. You did what you had to at the time in order to survive and you shouldn't be ashamed.

I'm happy you are in therapy. I hope you are finding it helpful. Getting plugged in with other people who can understand what you are going through can be a very comforting and enpowering thing. I encourage you to keep going. Keep reaching out and working on you healing.

I am glad you are here. Thank you for sharing your story as I'm sure it was a difficult thing to do. We are here for you anytime you need us.