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05/26/2008 08:36
JeffDavis2134
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for mind altering substances.

Pleas read my profile before replying to me. I've had a lot going on in my life and am not sure which of these bad things came as a result of my abuse, if any did.

From 7 on I had sexually deviant behaviors that got worse until about 10 years ago.

I am here to better UNDERSTAND myself. Iwas 3. How does that affect us?

Love you all, Jeff Davis

" Don't you see what this means? We live by each other... for each other. Alone we can do so little, TOGETHER we can do SO MUCH! This is my message of HOPE and INSPIRATION to all mankind. "
--(Helen Keller [blind and deaf as a toddler to one of the first women college graduates from a demanding college.] with the loving help of her teacher.)
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05/26/2008 10:56
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jeff, a lot of our behaviors (especially negative) are taught to us at very young ages. even if we do not remember. what you experienced and what you know happened to your sister could very well be an underlying issue on your past "sexual deviation". whether you remember the events of your childhood clearly or not, you learned these behaviors for a very sick and demented person at a critical stage in your life. but you should be extremely proud of yourself for breaking the chain and getting help or finding a way to help yourself. you are an awesome person to have seen that your behavior was wrong and change it. many never see their "deviate behavior" for what it is. keep sharing your story, jeff. hopefully you will help others open their eyes to their thoughts and behavior and seek help.


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05/26/2008 18:54
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Jeff, I agree with Lostgirl, you have taken a tremendous leap of courage in admitting that those behaviors were deviant. I was two when my abuse started, and it has caused more issues than I ever thought possible. It takes a lot of time, effort, and courage to recover from these events, but for the cange in the personI am and the way I see myself, it is more than worth it.

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05/27/2008 02:20
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Well done Jeff on taking that first step to admitting that your behaviours were deviant. It takes alot of courage to admit that. Lots of issues arise from abuse and some we don't understand at all. I am in the early stages of recovery myself so learning something new every day.
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05/27/2008 15:14
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At that young age I don't think the behaviour is dievant, but acting out. I did some similar things very young but never considered myself dieviant. I was just acting out what I was taught and responding to stress the only way I knew how.

I'm reading, Healing the Shame that Binds You, by ? Bradshaw and it is explaining very well a lot about shame and how you respond to it and how it changes you thought processes.


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05/27/2008 15:29
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Excellent book, Bradshaw does an excellent job of not only helping to acknowledge the shame, but to explain why we have it and how to relieve ourselves of it. I really like his inner child work. Lori, his methods are good for helping to get into contact with the little ones inside4 as well, especially if they do not trust you that much. I used them just for that purpose. He has other books in that same serries that are good.

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05/27/2008 15:54
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I'm still looking for Trust after Trauma that I hear is also very good. Brenda, I know you've read a lot, do you have any recommendations on books that were more helpful? It's hard to sort through all that is out there and some are just not good.

For me this is where I'm at. Understanding the shame and trying to learn to trust again. My little one was beginning to be integrated into me until the rape at 17. I think that is where she is stuck.

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05/27/2008 18:12
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Lori, there are three books that i found to be of good use besides Bradshaw's. the first being Allen Roland's Radical Therapy. The premisis is that the world is unified by a united field of love and if you can summit to it then you can be set free. He spends the first half of the book explaining the therory, then the last half is dedicated to seven exercises that he believes if done fully will set you free of all issues. The exercises are designed to be able to be done alone, or with a professional. The book is not currently in circulation, I found a copy at the labrary, it is also available on Amazon.com. It is helpful, but I am waiting to have a little extra cash to get a copy for me and my t. so we can use it , I just cannot seem to manage the exercises alone.

The next would be Dan Allender's The wounded Heart. It was specificly writen for surviviors, and does a good job of describing what the effects are. It has a workbook to go along with it. What I liked the most was that he was able to put scriptural references with it to help heal your faith as well as the effects of abuse. He admits that the church generaly handles the issue of abuse wrongly, and offers suggestions ot overcome that. It was actually through some of the explianation he provides that I was able to identify whjat it was thatI had been feeling. I had never had a name for the emotions, then while reading his discriptions, I realized that I wasn't strange feeling these wierd things, but that they were emotions that I had never been able to feel safely as a child.

The other is by Jan Frank, called Door of Hope. Another christian based book, but not as heavily as Wounded Heart. Originally writen for sexual abuse surviviors, she later realized that the ten steps she offers are good for healing most any trauma. She offers ten practical steps for moving through recovery, while admiting that it is a lifetime process.

Both Allender and Frank are surviviors and come from that point of view. they both use their own and others experiences to reiterate their points. E. Sue Blume has a good one as well, Seceret Suviviors, haven't read it in years, so I do not know if it is still available. There is also always the old stsnd by, Courage to Heal, I found it to be of limited help. though. Hope this helps.

Brenda

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05/28/2008 17:24
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Thanks Brenda, I'll look into these = online or at the library. Some are hard to find at the bookstores. I too had a hard time with Courage to Heal. I wasn't ready at the time and then didn't want to get caught with it and have to explain why I had it. Threw it out - I regret that now it was expensive and now I'm more ready to do some of it.

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05/28/2008 18:53
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Lori, not sure if I was just not ready for it, or if I just found it not to be in depth enough for my taste.Either way, I probable dhould get another copy and give it a shot. The two christian books I mentioned, can be ordered through a local christian bookstore, if they do not have a copy on the shelf.

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