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05/18/2008 18:53
lostgurl
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Confrontation of Past Wounds

To C.B.B., may God have mercy on your soul

Each time you raised your hand to me

I'd close my eyes so I couldn't see

Inside my mind I would always hide

each time you revealed your darker side

I was only a child, why couldn't you see

you should never have done what you did to me

You hurt my body as well as my soul

Did it just happen, or was it your goal

The life you manipulated became an emotional hell

from the first time you told me I should never tell

You said if I told they would say it's a lie

until all I could do was sit alone and cry

But you were wrong, people do believe

now you're the only one you can ever deceive

With regret I can never tell you how I feel

so I can learn to forgive and begin to heal

When you were met by angels at Heaven's gate

I wonder what was decided to be your fate

Were they merciful in wiping your slate clean of wrongs,

or were the depths of Hell deemed right where you belong

My stolen youth I mourn more than your passing

for your agony is over, while mine is everlasting.

******SEEDS OF LOVE******
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Scoff not the tears of the broken man,
for ridicule breeds emotional quicksand
Mourn not the spirit of the battered wife,
for pity grows nothing in the fields of life.
Turn no deaf ear to the anguished cries,
for ignorance is not bliss if the child dies.
Reach out with compassion and lend a hand,
to renew their faith in the kindness of man.
Give them strength to break free of the chains,
of a past so wrought with heartache and pain.
Nurture their courage to rise above,
by sowing hope through the seeds of love.
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05/18/2008 19:13
Lilibit58
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Wow, very nicely done. Very powerful immagary for those who are in the same situation. Thank you for posting.

Lori

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05/18/2008 19:47
glory
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LostGurl, that was great. Sounds like we had a similar childhood. I'll bet you feel better when you write about it , I do.

Love

Gloria








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We've stepped on our brother's foot.
We forget to be thankful.
We feel alone.
We think our dance is the only dance there is.




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05/18/2008 20:05
lostgurl
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yes i do. sometimes writing really helps. i know it doesn't make sense but i can get closer to my feelings and detach form them at the same time when i am writing.
******SEEDS OF LOVE******
written by lostgurl

Scoff not the tears of the broken man,
for ridicule breeds emotional quicksand
Mourn not the spirit of the battered wife,
for pity grows nothing in the fields of life.
Turn no deaf ear to the anguished cries,
for ignorance is not bliss if the child dies.
Reach out with compassion and lend a hand,
to renew their faith in the kindness of man.
Give them strength to break free of the chains,
of a past so wrought with heartache and pain.
Nurture their courage to rise above,
by sowing hope through the seeds of love.
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05/19/2008 02:24
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Well done for that. I can relate to that in so many ways. I feel better getting emotions on paper myself. Keep it up if it helps you x
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05/19/2008 05:52
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Yes very well writen. writing seems to be the only outet I have left at this time, but I find it harder to write about the abuse than other things. Ihave never had a problem writing, in fact my essays for my English Comp. class take about 30-45 minutes to write. However when it comes to this topic, I clam up. Wish i didn't. I have so much I would like to say and have no one to talk with. Maybe it is just not the right time for me to be writing about it. Anyway, well done.

Brenda

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05/19/2008 11:10
lostgurl
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bunny first thing to learn is write for yourself first. even if it starts out as a bunch of disconnected thoughts and feelings. doesn't have to make sense. eventually, these disconnected thoughts will take form. never write with the thought of others reading it, that can create so many mental blocks it isn't funny.

if you start to clam up when writing about your life, tell yourself these are MY feelings, this is how I view what happened to me, it doesn't matter what anyone but ME feels about what i write. you can also detach yourself from it while writing it. i am currently working on a novel that has tons of my life experiences in it. sometimes it really does help to get those feelings out and memories by thinking of them in the second person.

******SEEDS OF LOVE******
written by lostgurl

Scoff not the tears of the broken man,
for ridicule breeds emotional quicksand
Mourn not the spirit of the battered wife,
for pity grows nothing in the fields of life.
Turn no deaf ear to the anguished cries,
for ignorance is not bliss if the child dies.
Reach out with compassion and lend a hand,
to renew their faith in the kindness of man.
Give them strength to break free of the chains,
of a past so wrought with heartache and pain.
Nurture their courage to rise above,
by sowing hope through the seeds of love.


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05/19/2008 12:40
bunny_fly
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Lostgirl, I just started taking them out of the second person, now I need to put them back in the second person. Don't know if i am ready to do that yet. Still having problems owning all the memories.

Brenda

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05/19/2008 12:53
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Lost thanks for the tips on writing this all down. I struggle sometimes when I write things down like someone will read it and mock what I say. When I write in my own journal, it's free flow but to do what you do is very hard for me but it helps to jot things down.
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05/19/2008 12:59
lostgurl
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i used to be frightened of people looking and sneaking peaks too. but then i convinced myself that I AM ENTITLED TO MY VIEWS if they desire to read what i write so much they need to do so with an open mind or it is their problem not mine

that is the only thing i have been able to grant myself. the courage to write no matter what anyone thinks of my words

******SEEDS OF LOVE******
written by lostgurl

Scoff not the tears of the broken man,
for ridicule breeds emotional quicksand
Mourn not the spirit of the battered wife,
for pity grows nothing in the fields of life.
Turn no deaf ear to the anguished cries,
for ignorance is not bliss if the child dies.
Reach out with compassion and lend a hand,
to renew their faith in the kindness of man.
Give them strength to break free of the chains,
of a past so wrought with heartache and pain.
Nurture their courage to rise above,
by sowing hope through the seeds of love.
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