Sexual Abuse Support Group

I've been telling myself ptsd is a good enough group for this, and that I am not affected enough to stay in a group like this. I am too tired of being afraid though. I keep chopping my fears just up to general anxiety and phobias etc. When really I am getting help for those, but still get stuck. What keeps me from trying harder is my fear of men. I don't think I can ever get passed it. It feels rational and like I would be a fool not to be scared. But, it keeps me from getting better, so obviously I need to stop it. Just wondering how you get passed the fear and live your life. thanks for reading

I don't think it's about pushing past fear, it's deciding what to DO with the fear....fear can be power.....you can channel it into action, into standing up as an abuse survivor and taking the steps to turn that fear into power, the power that YOU have, the power that YOU control.

I get what your saying. I think I do that though. I am told I look angry and about to kill someone when walking haha. But I am still approached by random guys. Who ask so many questions and want to take me home, or go home with me. I havn't gone out on my own sober for months now since the last time this happened. It happened twice in one week where a guy stops me while walking and just I freeze. I havn't had an one hurt me for a while now, but I just can't get it out of my head when I'm out. I don't think I will live my life from here without being assaulted again. I'm only 21, lots left to go. I don't feel I have control at all. I swear I see them sometimes and I freak out and am upset by possibly seeing them for weeks later. I have a psychologist and psychiatrist who does therapy, but in person I am nervous as is. I can't talk about it. Online, it is so much more easy, but I dunno, sorry I know I am full of excuses.

Post edited by: zaylia, at: 12/09/2011 04:02 PM

No, it's not an excuse. Hopefully being here will help you fine tune some things....I think it will give being here a chance......a month here, reading the stories and seeing how strong others are in being a survivor, I think it will make a huge difference for you

I'm sure you're right. Every other group on MDJ has helped a lot. I've been reading posts, going to keep reading more. Just reading about people who think and feel the exact or similar things helps tremendously. Thanks for the welcome.