Hi everyone, I have been going through a pretty hard time and not on here much. I just wanted to share a poem and I hope that is ok to do? My poetry and my art help me to release some of my pain and anger towards my abusers and just life in general. Wishing everyone love and light...
" I have to leave, you know I cannot stay
from my past I need to get far away..
I am resigned and have no doubt
Sometimes the only way is out."
Plagued by memories of my bitter past
it seems my nightmares are bound to last
All I want is to be at peace..
for this relentless pain to cease.
You and I really never had a chance
for I alone with the devil dance
I know you tried more than anyone should
and I failed like I knew I would.
I've been worthless since the age of eight
I can't get past my shame and hate
I did not choose this haunted life
and tried to escape with the sting of the knife.
I cannot change what has been
All I want is to feel whole again
I look in the mirror and hate what I see
Damaged goods look back at me.
I see embarrasment in my families eyes
They pretend to care but I see through thier lies
It would not matter if I were even here
so many times I've wanted to disappear.
I have learned men bring me only pain
I have learned to love is all in vain
I have learned I will always be alone
and never have a place called home.
Karel6..that was precious to say. Thank you.