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Hi elizabeth, You are special in many way 1 God made you,2 your name is like my baby girl so I no your special,3 just by looking at your picture. I hope your are doing well. I just want you to no that your not a lone I do no how you feel. I hate to hear people tell me oh i no how you fell when they haven't been through it so trust me when i tell you i no. I don't want to give you a long story so I'll try to make it short.I come from a family of 10 girls and 3 boys a father who spen his life ruining his children and a mom who work so hard and was so in love didn't have time to make it stop.So one day at the age of 11 by now my dad had his on apartment cause the family and children services made him leave not because of what he was doing but so my mom cac get so foodstamps then he would beat her and take half for his other women or sell what ever he felt like. 1 nite he decide to pick up me and my 9yr sister we was kicking and screaming beging my mom to nit let him take us neighbors all out no one bother to even call cop but it never matter anyway because they would just pick him up let him sleep it off and send him home next day.We get to his apartment he makes us undress and get in bed while he finish watching tv.Got in bed and as he raped me and taken his foot fundling my lil sister private area. He got so angry that he could not fit inside me that he tried to stretch me with his loaded rifle.After that didn't work he got up realizing he was out of beer it 2-3 in morning. When he left i got up dressed me an my sis ran out door to across the hall.We told her what had been happening she let us stay there until my dad finally call my mom and she call cops. They never found us we hid behind old building by night we got scraed so i call 911. When they came we went to station think thank GOD its over WRONG they call our parents and sent us home with them of course this made my dad really anger cause now we broke the rule and told so.That night we went for a ride as we cross the Mississippi River he stop pulled over got out his car told me to get out. He dangled me over that bridge by my foot I hated him for life and I just never understood my mom for staying.Well one day I was at church and I heard the preacher say that we had to forgive 7x . I said to myself that he didn't mean in my case of course I was wrong.so I did I was there for him any and everything he need done or to go i did it for him.Then one day my dad called me about 2-3a.m. and said. babygirl I just wanted to let you no I'm sorry for destorying you,your sisters and moms life. I was speechless shocked then about 2-3 weeks later 1-15-2000 he died and I said to myself he made peace I'm now 40yrs old my mom was my best friend I never hated her just never understood.One day my mom called me about 1-2a.m. in the morning an ask me do you hate me for the things that happen in your life I told her mom I don't hate what happen to us dad did not you and like you have told us all these years he have to answer for that. Then about 2 weeks later 12-08-2007 my mom an best frind died and yes she to made peace with GOD. I tell you all this because my other sisters that went through this are still dealing with the anger,hurt,pain and the fact that not only did they not get a chance to tell dad that YOUDON'T HAVE TO ADMIT WHAT YOU DID TO ME BUT GOD KNOWS AND YOU HAVE TO ANSWER TO HIM ONE DAY BUT FOR ME I FORGIVE YOU YOU HAVE NO POWER OVER MY LIFE ANYMORE! AND TO MOM FOR ALL THE THINGS THEY DIDN'T GET TO SAY OR JUST A SIMPLE MOM I DON'T HATE YOU.It's metally destroying them so PLEASE !! Don't give them the power. I hope this help someone.
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