Teens Sexual Abuse Support Group

I am a freshman in high school who is dealing with thoughts of suicide, depression, and low self esteem. I was molested when I was 7 and for 8 years I kept it to myself and I felt like a worthless piece of trash for most of my childhood. The nightmares have kept me up for years like they are right now. I am dealing with my self esteem and the abuse with two therapists and I was just taken off prozac so I'm feeling the emotions rushing out these days. My problem right now it my home environment my mom has been emotionally uninvolved I was living with my aunt in jamaica for 3 years then all of a sudden when I was 7 my mom made me come live with her after I had not heard from her in 3 years and after living with her for about 2 months I was molested my life turned upside down and I resent her for everything all these years I've been the second mother and the emotional punching bag while she goes out to clubs dates married men and sits in her room and watches tv and texts no job no parental involvement no nothing even after telling her about the abuse and being in a mental institution this year sorry this was so long I justed wanted to let it all out any advice on where I can go to make up for the lack of support and love I don't have at home

I had a similer experience.... I was molestered by a neighbour for 3 years from the age 8 until I was 11. I always contemplated suicide, also living in fear and had no self confidence todo anythink. I adventually told about this 9 years after it happened and slowly feel alittle more confident about trying new things, but the one think I can't do is stop blaming my mum..... If she paid alittle more attention to me and not bother doin her thing on a daily basics maybe I wouldn't of suffered for so long.

Thank you so much for sharing your story with me I had never really talked about the abuse too much I should talk about it moreand I also find it hard to not blame my mother I just wished she cared more and was mote attentive as a parent thanks

Yep, I blamed my mother and always have..... I don't really speak about to people that know me. But I speak to a counsilor every 2 weeks which helps a great deal. And Its no worries I find it a comfort that Some1 knows exactly how I feel so thank you.