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Hi ALL, Im just curious to know what makes you a sex addict? Because Im recently discovering that I am a Co Dependent person in a relationship that besides many other aspects to it revolves around the high i get from having sex with this person. I have been involved with this person for 9yrs but he has always had another partner and I have always been on the sidelines playing the role of his best female friend. Thing is we constantly have sex (he says he loves me all the time as do I) but over the years we have joked about being sex addicts and Im starting to believe it. I find myself going to all new lows for myself just to get the high I get from having sex with him. Places, times, public, with other females just to please him (when Im with the other females its like I shut off I perform well but they arent my cup of tea but I push through it cause I know It turns him on and in turn it doubly turns me On, he lives with someone that believes we are just friends if she steps out we slip in a quicky (he convinces me that Im like his wife and she is just the person he lives with since he and I have been together longer), I slip away on my lunch break constantly to meet him where ever he is to slip in another quicky sometimes well alot Im late returning back to lunch and I know this will be the outcome and Ill get into trouble but I dont care. I find myself lying about being still being with him or ignoring calls when Im with him cause all I can think about is the sex with him. We have many issues that we mostly ignore because once we get around each other we will have sex and act like we had no issues and they are all gone. He could probably talk me into almost anything when sex is involved. Most of the times though I feel even worse after we've had sex, I enjoyed myself all the way through but when its done I either crave more and demand it or then hate the relationship Im in with him because it doesnt allow me the full access to him that I desire. Most of our relationship revolves around our outragious sexcapades. Its gotten to the point that I justify having sex with someone else I know Nothing about only that when I call I know he will give me my fix if the guy I consider my boyfriend isnt around or we are arguing so I know I cant get it from him. I hate talking to this other guy yet he only spikes my interest when I find myself in a sexual jam. Im constantly inappropriate with guys around me leading them on to believe sex is aaround the corner it turns me on I think if they followed through I would have sex with them (only thing stopping me is that I work with them). The guy Im involved with was my First 9yrs ago, Ive had one other relationship besides him when we were on a break but I carried this other relationship on while I still had sex with him, I would even bring him to my house when the guy I lived with was at work. The girls he brings to me so that we can have threesomes I could care less about but will have sex with just to please him and get that high fromthe sex from him and from them now too. Help |
