Self-Injury Support Group

I cannot believe i am even asking this but a support group is here for these kind of personal experiences i guess right? Has anyone ever SI their uhmm... private areas? Ever since i was sexualy abused as a child ive SI, and one of my "areas" is down there.. am i that messed up or is that something people have herd before?

I don't think anything is really off limits here, sweetie, so feel free to enquire about anything, after all we're here to support you.

It is actually normal for those who have experienced rape/sexual abuse to si, and to especially si down there. It's sort of like reenacting the abuse, though why is not very clear, it could be a variety of reasons, for example, maybe you do it to feel a sense of control - control that wasn't present during the original abuse.

Oh, and yes, I have si'd in my private area before. I was raped by a family member, and when I got flashbacks of that night I'd slash down there to pull me back.

You're not messed up. I'm glad you posted this question - I have si'd in my private area as well. I never told anyone b/c I was too ashamed. I agree that it is about trying to regain the control that was lost at the time of the abuse.

I am glad to know i am not alone in this. it makes me feel like a monster because i do it. I am not really sure if it is a control thing why i personally do it. I think it is more of a self image complex. Like i allowed it to be done to me and i dont want down there to be recognized(not that it would ever happen with him again). or maybe i feel i deserve to look how i feel inside. I do have a Boyfriend of 10+ years and have a very healthy sex life with him. He doesnt know that i hurt myself down there. I am afraid that if i were to open up and tell him that he would see me differently. He is very hush hush on the subject of SI. Every time he sees the visible scars on me he gets quiet or wont look at me. ITs almost like he is embarrassed for me, so if i were to let him in on what i do i am afraid he would stop wanting to be intimate or even cuddle with me anymore..