Schizophrenia Support Group

Hello, I'm Tala. I'm schizo-affective disorder. People with schizo-affective disorder have severe changes in mood and the psychotic symptoms of schizophrenia, such as hallucinations, delusions and disorganized thinking. I've had these symptoms plus unusual behavior, lack of affect, poor motivation, problems communicating, feelings of hopelessness, problems concentrating, racing thoughts, forgetfulness, self-destructive behavior, and suicidal ideations. I take Geodon and Depakote ER for my disorder and Celexa for infrequent panic attacks.

Most of my hallucinations involved Spirits or souls, see-through beings disembodied from any host, that I could communicate with on a physical level. There was also the voices that inevitably led me to personal troubles and legal ramifications. I was deluded that I was a powerful psychic and clairvoyant who could commune with the other side of life. Although I feel that there is often a strong connection between mental illness and the spiritual, I am no more a mentalist than your average Joe and when I have the contribution of my medications I'm quite normal actually.

I'm a writer and am currently writing my first two books. One is my autobiography and the other is about an orphaned Aztec boy who is a common thief that becomes a legend. I enjoy writing on the internet and working on poetry. I'm also considering doing some short stories for Reader's Digest. I'm also expert at photography and could be a journalist if I chose to return to working for someone else. Reading and writing are two of my favorite pastimes. I've also written some songs and am a big fan of rock music. I express myself better with the written word than I do verbally.

Anyway, if anyone has any problems with schizophrenia or schizo-affective disorder that they need help with, I'll be around and do not mind private messages at all. Remember that everything is a test and if you have a crisis you're dealing with, I'll be here to talk.

Post edited by: Alisprinx, at: 04/15/2008 14:31

Hello Tala, my name is Johnnie I am diagonosed bipolar and schizo-affective. Some of things that you wrote about I can relate to. I was diagonosed bipolar in 2005 in in 2007 of last year I was diagonsed schizo-affective. I too believe that their is a strong tie between mentals

I too beileve that thier is a strong tie between spirit world. I am a Christian and I consider myself to have strong christian values. Well the reason why I am writing is becuase I experienced some of the same things as you. Even when I was manic everything I experienced some things that were not my imagination. For instance it all started in 2005 with. Since then I have experienced audible voices from the other side. EVP electronic voice phenomana its when I spirt speaks through recorded technology, I have expeienced poltergiests( for example when a spirit bangs on something, or moves something) it happened to me on 3 separte occasions. And I have seen spirits (I think demons)and I seen a angel. And starting in October of 2007 I got contacted by a group of spirits I first I thought they were my spirit guides ( I thought I was turning psysic)( I used to watch Sylvia Brown on Montell) they started from the get go with lies on top of lies, they finally told me that they are evil spirits and their from hell, and the possese me on a regular basis. Honestly I do not know why I am telling you all this becuase I know it sounds unbelieveable. I have been getting spiritualy attacked since October 2007 non stop. They spirits are there when I wake up and when I go to bed. They dont give thier names but see how they operate in everything evil and unclean but from my personal experiences I see that the Spirits gravite towards people that are spiritally acute or have some sort of mental illness. I am on medication geodone and risperdal. It know its not my own brain by things that the spirits say and do. If I told my therapist the would just put me on a higher dose of medication. And medication is not helping my situation becuase it is spiritual. I do not know how to get rid of them I do not want to dabble in the occult because the bible speaks out strongly against it. But from my experiences I am stone cold convinced about Heavon and Hell and good and bad spirits because I live it everyday. They only postitive thing from my experience is that I know that Heavon is real and I long to go there. I am really at my wits end with these spirits. The are not as bad as they used to be but thet are persistant. Know if I was hallucinating all of this I would not be writing and I have found any websites that deal with my probelm of being spiritualy attacked. Well the reason why I am writing is bescause I want to know how you dealt with the spirits that bothered you. Call me gullable but I believe that when you saw the spirits and when you spoke to them you actually did and you were not hallucinating. Becuase I experienced some of it when I was in my right mind. I just cant imagine going the rest of my life puting up with them. I thought about going on the Montell Williams show and talking to Sylvia Brown but from my own experinece I believe she is being guided by evil spirits because some of the stuff she teaches. If you have any helpful advice I would like to hear it. Thank you.

Hi Johnnie. Welcome to the forum.

I dealt with the Spirits and souls I encountered in different ways. Sometimes I would meditate to block them out. Sometimes I just listened to them because they only had knowledge to impart to me. Sometimes I just observed them doing what they do with a sense of wonder. If any became troublesome, I would use spiritual mental energy and put up a protective white light around me in my aura. There were times when I would fight them with magick or spells. I kept myself angry if they were extremely burdensome to feel more protected. I carried a Native American Medicine Pouch around with me everywhere I went for defense. Sometimes I prayed to them if they were important enough. Sometimes I talked to or sang to them to let them know I was aware they were there and to try to be friendly. It was almost a constant psychosis with me often getting confused about what to expect next.

I don't experience them anymore. It feels good to be normal again.

I believe a lot of Spirits are more drawn to people who are beyond aware with an open subconscious and although some of them just want to make a connection, it can be more trouble than it's worth because some are drawn to those who are open to it to be afflicting and vindictive since they are less than wholesome. I do know that if a Spirit won't identify itself to you, it has bad intentions. Good luck to you in finding a solution and keeping a challenging mind under control.

Hello Tala, thanks for your response. When the spirits first contacted me in 2005 they were brutal that is how I ended up in the hospital the first time. After the first attack in 2005 I got very depressed and I tried to commit suicide I heard a good spirit scream out NO! when I tried to take my own life it literialy saved my life. So I do believe I have good spirits looking after me. These other

spirits lied to me so bad I dropped out of grad school they really got my hopes up for somthing I really wanted in life. I do not want to turn to the occult to deal with them because I think that might attract the more. I dont need a wegi baord to talk to this spirits they just come around me. And personnaly I think wegi baords attact evil spirits.

And I know what is feels like to be possessed where you are not controling your bodey and only part of your mind. I am very religious and I thought is was the holy ghost. I should have known better because before the spirit possessed me I heard a voice behind me asking to take control of my bodey. For me telling you this is a way of therapy. They only

way I combat them is by praying I feel that the only person that can help me is God alone. This is somthing beyond medication I pill cant solve my probelm. Really I try to ignore them. Before I started hearing from them I felt like I was being attacked my evil spirits at

one point I

even comptimplated contacting a exorcist. I dont wish what I experience on anybodey because it is exhausting. You said you used a Native American pouch and white lights. I dont think that well work for me. I guess my biggest fear is that they will attack me physically beacuse I know they can touch ( I spirit tapped me on the shoulder once). And I experienced a poltergiest so strong a whole building shook and I heard a scream like the gates of hell opened up. (That really scared me). I even almost got sexually asualted by one spirit. So you can see why I am searching for answers and for people who experienced similar things. For the past few months I have not been depressed so I think the meds help out with that. And I am glad to hear that they leave you alone now. I am hoping that they see that I am a good Christian and leave me alone. Well through this I gained some insight about the ongoings of the evil spiritual realm. If anything they get off on anything that is against what God teaches. And in the bible is plain in simple Satan is the father of lies in they talk about possession in the bible Jesus and the apostles were always casting them out, and in hell there is weeping and gnashing of teeth but I know for a fact that they get out from time to time. The only thing good they told me is that not to commit suicide becuase if I do I will end up in hell. They reason why I am writing this becuase I have held this in long enough I feel that is a kind of therapy. And I know thier is a spiritual war going on between God and Satan. In the end I am just happy that I am on the winning team. And I know that God wont forsake me so I am looking forward to having a normal life again. If anyone reading this knows thew power of prayer please pray for me.