Schizophrenia Support Group

I havent posted in DS in a few months now. I hope everyone is fine and doing good with their meds. I'm not doing so well, I was prescribed perphenazine awhile ago and its not working and the people who are "taking care" of me wont take me to therapy or psychiatry because they dont want to pay. I feel as though I'm getting worse and worse as the days go by. I feel like god is punishing me for some reason like I'm doing something wrong and I dont understand what it could be. I'm upset all the time depressed and I'm becoming physically ill aswell. I have no one to talk to I feel like I'm spiraling out of control right now and no one is going to save I just feel as though I'm being kicked while I'm down. I feel paranoid about people lately like theyre just completely out to get me relentlessly for no reason like they want my blood on their hands because jesus thinks I'm sinful. What if I'm right ? Then that makes me a demon and them angels, right ?. I dont know where else to go or who else to talk to seeing as I dont have enough money of my own to go and see a doctor. I have been looking into alternate remedies for sz like teas or just complete self medication with cannabis. I dont want these pills anymore they arent helping me

There must be a walk in clinic you can get to, or go to the e.r. yourself, let them know, and ask to see a social worker, should they keep you in the pysch unit to watch over you as meds get changed, if that is possible in that area. Speaking to the social worker, will get you started on medicaid, because the hosp. wants to get paid, so they usually have a social worker to speed things up for you, and you will have at least you're own insurance, again crossing fingers, your area has this available. It has to be a city hospital and not private, they want insurance up front.

I hope this helps, and keep posting. You are not bad, you did not do anything wrong, but as I see it, you have a dilemma in those not thinking how serious your ailment is. That is so not fair to you. Let us know what you can and will do for yourself, for life to be made better for you.

dd

D-dawn is completely right. Get up and go the the ER, tell them what's bothering you. They will help you no matter the issues about cost. It's just like D-dawn said - they'll get you to a social worker who will help you out just fine.

And....you are a good person!! You are just very far down and letting it all pile up on you. One thing leads to another, and it just gets worse and worse. You are a good person and don't you doubt that!!

I'm glad you feel you can turn to us here. We are here to help - so anytime, please do turn to us!! That's what we're here for.

Please, keep in touch. I want to know you are getting some help and hopefully can begin to feel a little better.

Hugs out to you from the Bronx, NYC,

Catherine

..these Arbutus are a lovely little flower. I hope they bring you a little hope!! Cat

I will talk to my ma about getting up to the er soon because I think its getting worse at this point I cant really tell reality from fantasy the stuff on TV looks soo real and the outside world looks like it belongs on TV or is it the same thing ? I'm not sure buu its really bothering me.

Maybe different hospitals are different are maybe they use new technology now and financial counselors instead of social workers. However, I do have a social worker at my mental health center and I am going to ask for her help in dealing with this. Basically the recording wanted a bunch of documents including my last 3 months income, to see if I qualify for some type of discount, payment plan, etc. whatever they offer. It was not very specific.

I do not understand what the recording expected me to do. Just get the docs together and wait for the bill, or another phone call, or to call them when I have all the docs or what.

I detest recordings, but I also can't work with people who talk really fast or have heavy accents, so I feel kind of screwed. I am pretty sure my social worker will be able to help me handle it though. She often gives me an entire hour and a half and she can't give me any more than that weekly. She's got lots of clients and even works Saturdays. She really is gong hoe on helping people though. I am happy to have her. She doesn't return phone calls though for a week or so. She is supposed to but none of my previous social worker returned calls ever.

Hope you can find some kind of helpful clinic or psych at a hospital. Believe it or not the particular time I went to the hospital was labor day weekend and they for some strange reason had no psych on call. Just my bad luck I guess.

All three of us deal with issues, so we can understand how this feels for others. That also makes us able to give suggestions.

I truly hope you find something that helps and someone to help you cope as you get better.

All of our love and support to you shanese.

blessings,

dd

We care,

dd