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I was in a relationship with a guy who is a paranoid schizophrenic. He lives in a group home, but our relationship was amazing. We had our future planned out. We were head over heels in love. We were perfect for each other. I never saw any of his symptoms or anything. We had a big fight on the phone the Monday before Thanksgiving. We've had fights before, but we've always been able to work things out. We never could stay mad at each other. This fight really screwed up the relationship. I've tried talking to him. I've sent him emails and letters. I even had a friend call him. He told my friend that he still loves me and sees a future with me. He said that he really took the fight personally. He told her that he just needs some space from life and he'd call me in about a week when he'd be ready to talk. She said he sounded depressed. I didn't hear from him, so my friend called him again. It was like he was a completely different person. He said that he didn't want a relationship with me right now but that he still cared about me. So I called him the next night and he acted even worse. First he said "don't you realize its over?" I tried talking to him about everything. It started to sound like maybe we were going to work things out, but then he said "get some self- esteem, and then we'll talk." Then he hung up on me. I think if he really hated me or didn't want to be with me he would've been cursing at me and stuff like that. He was with a girl for 6 and a half years before he was with me. She treated him horribly. So I don't know if maybe he was afraid that I'm going to start acting like her or something like that. I spoiled him. He has no job, no money, no car. I did everything for him. He'll never find another relationship like we had. I know that this time of year is depressing for a lot of people (including myself). I'm wondering if his symptoms are starting to come out, and maybe he needs different meds or hospitalization. I'm also wondering if maybe people are putting things into his head. I really want him back in my life, but I don't know what to do. I love him so much and would do anything for him. Does anyone have any advice? Does he still love me? Does he maybe just need some time? 
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