Schizoaffective Disorder Online Support Group

My main complaint these days is anhedonia. No matter what I do, I do not feel any pleasure or emotion. It scares me...I wonder, am I always going to be this way now? Is it the meds, or is it part of having Schizoaffective Disorder? I haven't really talked to my doctor about it, and I'm not sure there is anything he could do to help this anyway...

A few weeks ago a good friend of mine died suddenly from an accident. I felt a sort of sense of shock or unreality, but no real emotion. That really sucks because he was a close enough friend (knew him for over 20 years) that I should feel something!

And on the pleasure side, last week my favorite band who broke up in 2005 got back together to play 11 concerts and one was a free show in a nearby town. I went to see them, but it should have been somewhat exciting for me...I didn't really get much from the whole experience even though I used to consider being at one of their concerts one of my favorite things to experience.

I don't even know if it's the meds anymore...I used to quit my meds because I wanted to FEEL again, but I sort of have a feeling that this time, that wouldn't even make a difference...

This is starting to get frustrating and I feel like I am alive, but I am not living...

Post edited by: W1971, at: 07/30/2011 10:49 PM

Try walking it may help and look off into the distance apprieciating what you have.

Thanks, I haven't gone for a walk in a long time, a few weeks anyway...it sometimes seems to help. Sometimes music helps too, and I haven't been enjoying anything lately so I just don't bother with those things I guess...maybe I need to sort of give myself a kick and I will start to respond to things more.

exercise is good for you

Yeah, and I haven't been getting enough...I used to go to the gym but then I moved too far and the ones near my new place are way too expensive (World Gym is only $10 a month - can't beat that!) So at home I can't get motivated...I keep buying exercise stuff but never use it, or swear I will at least start doing my old yoga routine that I once did every single day...but it never happens. I definitely need some motivation!