I've been looking for good online rape support groups for so long now, this one seems right.

I was first sexually assaulted at 14 by an older kid at my high school. he held me down and undid my jeans, touched me everywhere. I was so depressed for two years, did drugs, didn't care about life, and was incredibly suicidal.

Last year, just as i was starting to "get over" my depression, I dated a friend of mine. We knew eachother for almost 2 years and had kissed before, we knew we liked eachother. He started out being very controlling and verbally abusive when it came to anything I wanted to do/my body/EVERYTHING. Then he became physically abusive. He hit me all the time and shot me with a BB gun. Then he started forcing me to do sexual things to him. It was always forced. When it came to full-blown sex, he terrified me so much I couldn't say no, so he raped me. He always trheatened to kill me and rape me, and he had no problem doing so.

I still get very depressed about this, but I'm trying to be strong and move forward with my life<3

I'm guessing you broke up with him, and are safe now. Have you tried counseling yet. It was the best thing for me in the long run. Please don't let the depression get out of control. I hope you can find some professional help

My story is similar, as a bf r**ped me at 17 too, though the abuse went on for months. I for some reason didn't see it, though others did. It took me years to go to counseling and it was after years when I got sucicidal that I finally went. It was the best thing I wish I would have gone sooner. Feel free to PM me anytime.