4 years ago I was raped by someone that I trusted. Its been a very difficult road, ummm... I tried getting the rapist prosecuted and in jail forever, but the DA refused to prosecute. My V.P.O ran out back in August, I've been terrified that the rapist is going to come after me now that the cops won't be putting any type of priority on it since I don't have a V.P.O anymore. I've been suffering from insomnia, depression, anxiety, and have just been a real pain in the ass to my husband lately. This has happened leading up to the previous 3 anniversaries (that started as early as a month or 2 before the anniversary), but this time its worse... a lot worse! Idk what to do, I feel like I'm drowning in all this and that its going to push from husband further away from me. Does anyone have any advice for what I can/should do to help alleviate the "symptoms" I guess you could call them? What can/should I do on the anniversary to keep it off my mind? And, how to I talk to my husband about all of this? We were married almost a month and 1/2 after the rape occurred and he didn't know about it until 8 months after it happened, and to this day he can't or won't talk with me about it and idk what else to do. |
