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Hi Kaoskatt, I am so sorry you are going through all of this. I am going to try to tackle your questions in order, and I hope to hell I don't don't come off gruff or uncaring, because it's just the opposite. 1) Matt is probably the biggest problem or trigger you can have around you right now. Things may have been different before but now, he is unhealthy for you mentally and physically. You have to put a wall up between the 2 of you. If he continues to try and contact you out a restraining order on him. The night of the rape you fought for your life to survive. Now comes the hearder part, fight for your life to live. Believe in yourself and know that you deserve happiness, and to be loved and respected. 2) When someone is raped there is a loss of control in your life and chaos kicks in, then depression. I have had bouts of depression and anger since my rape. When I get depressed I sit my butt on the couch, watch t.c and don't talk to anyone. It lasts for a couple of days. The only way I can break that cycle is get good and pissed off. I understand the feeling of wanting to die, but you know what, he'd win, he then could spin his tales of shit amd make you look bad. You did nothing wrong. If anyone should be punished for life it Please feel free to PM me anytime,Hugs and peace, Jenn I just want to let you all know that I am just like you, a regular person. I am not a doctor or a therapist, but I do promise to be there and listen as often as I can.
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