Rape Support Group

He took my life when he raped me. I was at my friend house because my sister was gone. I spent the night over there believing where ever i go i was safe. Unexpectedly she had her cousins come over and they're all doods. there was no female in that big ass pile. I really felt out of my comfort zone and continued to let my friend and her cousins play my game. I went into the room and began going to sleep. then it began. the door creeped open and then it closed. I thought that was my friend's mother but apparently i was wrong.I felt his hand touch my face and i tried to get up but he put it over my mouth and pulled me to the ground. he told me i better not scream and i better not trick. i felt his hand slide down into my pants and panties. he started kissing on my neck and lips. i just layed there not knowing

if i had done this to myself or should i want it. It was so painful and i told him to stop but he went even deeper. i was only 12 when he stuck it in. there was no protection and i didn't go to the doctor. I'm scared to tell my sister(also my guardian). i don't want people looking at me differently but the worse part about it i don't know how he look. it was too dark. I've been having bad nightmares and cried about each one. they seemed so real and each time i felt the pain come back. I haven't really discussed this with no one but i need to know how can i tell my sister? how can i tell her i was raped and need to go to the doctor? how can i tell her each boy that I've had sex with after the rape i thought i needed to? this is why i say when he raped me he took my life and happiness.

Post edited by: bleedinglove, at: 12/05/2009 06:48 PM

Hi bleedinglove,

Welcome to the group. I am so sorry about what happened to you. It is good to talk about it and you have all of our support here. One thing I want you to know is that it is not your fault what happened, not in any way. The best thing to do is to tell your sister and go to the police. This was absolutely not your fault and that guy is sick. Many of us felt like we had to have sex after the rape. I thought it was what I was supposed to do since I felt damaged. I was wrong about that. There is nothing damaged about me and there is nothing damaged about you. A good counselor will help you to see that. Just know that you have alot of support here.

Lisa

Im sorry bleedinglove. You have tons of support here but it would be good to have support close to you, at home. If you are afraid to say the words to your sister, how about writing her a letter and leaqving it on the counter. You need support right now. I sense that you are in a lot of pain right now. I know my daughter felt WAY better after telling us. She kept it to her self for years.

Please use the forum to VENT , heal and make new friends. YOUR NOT ALONE.

YOU still have your life! You are very brave and strong.

Private message me anytime.

Hiall

hey there BleedingLove. im joey. i know how epically suckish being raped can be. I'm only 13, and 8 weeks with the asshole's baby. chlamydia doesn't help either. anyway, please PM me if you want to. good luck!

Hi bleedinglove and welcome to the group. I am so sorry for what happend to you. 1st tell your sister just like you told us here. You did nothing to deserve being raped. It was not your fault. Not all men are the same. You are so young sweetie. You don't have to have sex with anyone you don't want too. Don't let anyone tell you different. Alot of boys will pull the "if you love me u will have sex". Well bull on that. I have a teenage daughter and when she was 14 I told her that even if she wants to have sex to say no at first, tell the boy you want to wait a little bit. That is a sure fire way to see if he cares. Any guy who honestly cares and loves you will be willing to wait until you are ready. Pleasse get some help though either tell your sister or go to your guidence councelor at school.

Hugs and Peace,

Jenn