I can relate to what you are saying. This New Years Eve, I still consider myself healthy and maybe cancer free. I have a biopsy Jan 20th. I'm hoping for the best and preparing for the worst. As I read your post, my heart went out to you. A radical change in your life and world view occurs when you move from a healthy state to a person with cancer. I'm going to suggest something that may sound strange, but I believe it. What's most harmful to your life right now isn't the surgery, isn't the treatment, nor is it a diagnosis of prostate cancer. Here's what's most harmful: because this year has been one of constant worry and surgery and i see no end to it my life was much better before i knew. It's what's going on between your ears. Grieving and saying goodbye to your old healthy life is painful and necessary to get through to the other side. You"re still looking in the rear view mirror at the life you had before you knew. The other piece of what you said that will do you in and maybe worse for you than the cancer itself is constant worry. In Prov 13:12 it says Hope deferred makes the heart sick So does constant worry. That's as big an issue that you must deal with as the cancer, or you will miss out on the life you can life as a cancer survivor, for however long that is. Talk to people, get support, don't go this alone, which is something men are famous for doing. In the moment Prostate Cancer has not only invaded your prostate, it's invaded your mind, taking away your ability to enjoy the life you have. It doesn't always have to be that way. Post edited by: RickRed40, at: 01/01/2011 08:25 AM Author of
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