Long story short, my PTSD case was a workers comp. suit. It was settled about 2 years ago and about 7 months ago, I realized I had PTSD and decided to get help. My health insurance only covered the first session  I've been paying out of pocket since and it's been a struggle for me. I contacted my lawyer and due to laws, I have to see the Dr. that the old insurance company wants me to see. The same doctor that ended my treatment because the insurance company didn't want to pay anymore. I believe that she has a strong part in my condition as it is today. I went to her today and she did remember me even though it's been 6 years since I've seen her. I had such a high anxiety level even just waiting in the waiting room because of all the bad memories that it brought back. From the moment I sat down I felt like I was being judged. She asked what had been going on to bring me in. I stuttered and told her I didn't know where to begin. It'd been so long since I had been there. In a nasty tone she said well start somewhere and I'll follow. It made me even more uncomfortable. I was trying so hard to keep my anxiety down that I couldn't even talk half the time. I felt like she didn't believe a single word that came out of my mouth. It's so frustrating and disheartening. I found a doctor that is helping me and because I can't afford to pay for it, I'm being forced to see someone else. I will not be going back to the doctor I saw today but I don't want to see another doctor either because I don't want to have to 'restart' my treatment with a new one. My progress is slow with the doctor I'm seeing now but I have to undue 6 years worth of damage. I'm happy and comfortable with who I'm seeing. It's really got me in quite a slump right now. I'm hoping it'll all work out quickly. Has anyone else been through this before? Or atleast have any advice on how to possibly handle this? Nicole |
