glory
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Hi itsnotme. Welcome to the forum. I am 58, have had BPD & PTSD all of my life. (well as much as I remember) lol (which is actually most of it.) Yes, with that OCD making me just a little crazier. lol I had asked my shrink just what was my mental illness. Which was it? He kinda chuckled and said, "well the same meds treat both BPD & PTSD so it really doesn't matter." Looking back and thinking about it, he was, & is right. It's all mental illness & we must live with it and deal with it. Without my 3 lifelines, Psychiatrist, Medication, and Therapist, I would be lost. I have been stable for many years with their help. I still get angry, happy, sad, loving, hateful, and just plain depressed. These are all human emotions, they're not exclusive to mental illness. It has gotten better with age, but only because I am religious with all 3 of my life lines. My greatest salvation is my family and the solitude they afford me when I am stressed beyond my ability to shake it off. I take, Lexapro, Lamictal, and Seroquel. With this cocktail of drugs, my ups aren't so uppity and my downs aren't so downing. These disorders can either rule your life , or just become an irritant, like a gnat flying around your head. You have the choice of staying ahead of your illness with the 3 lifelines that help me, or just giving into it. Giving in is the easy choice, fighting for, YOU, is the hard one, but so very rewarding. I believe that what gave me the strength to beat this mental crap, was finlly speaking, yelling, and screaming what had been laying dormant since childhood. My first husband of 20 yrs didn't even know I was mentally ill, that's how deep I kept it. When I finally had the nerve to tell about my horrors as a child, I began to heal. Sure I was predisposed to being BP, but my decision with the help of a therapist was that nurture won out over nature. I think when you find out what the catalyst for your illness is, you will also start to mend. Any questions to this old crazy gal will be answered the best way I can. Love Gloria glory |
