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11/07/2008 07:03 AM
xMandiex
 
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It took me long enough, but I finally sucked it up and went to a therapist. She's diagnosed me with PTSD and social anxiety.

I've never been in a war or anything like that, so I can't help feeling horribly guilty for having PTSD. My sexual assaults were small in nature - not considered a full rape, but apparently still in the realm of sexual assault - so I just sort of feel like I don't deserve to have PTSD.

I'm trying to get over that conception, here's hoping.

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11/07/2008 07:29 AM  Top
countrymouse
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Hi xMandiex, I don't think that you should feel guilty for having PTSD. it is nothing that you can have control over. I'm no expert, but any sexual assault is still an assault, and you indicate that there were multiple incidences. We are here to help. Welcome
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11/07/2008 07:56 AM  Top
ThisBlows
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Theres nothing to feel guilty about, PTSD isnt just a military problem, and CM is right... an assult is an assult.

That being said, welcome to the group!

Cry HAVOC! and let slip the lemmings of war!

She turned me into a newt!.... I got better

Spes Mea In Deo Est

11/07/2008 10:38 AM  Top
trent
trentPosts: 15
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NO ONE deserves to have PTSD, its not like some kind of medal that we have won. sexual assult, rape, war, deaths, what ever it is that caused it we were all been a part of something horrable! Its the way our minds handle things that bother us. I hope that you get the help that you are looking for on this sight!

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11/07/2008 11:28 AM  Top
xMandiex
 
Posts: 129
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I guess I just feel like I'm being all whiny, I mean I wasn't in anything truly horrible so I feel like I am just ... agh, I can't even put it into words.

I feel like I'm just being a whiner, when I should just suck it up. I'm glad to have found this website, I'll definitely be looking around all the other posts too.

Thanks for the welcome.


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11/07/2008 12:18 PM  Top
ThisBlows
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Dont feel that way, your not being whiny. But I know how you feel. Theres a stigma attached to PTSD in the military, lets just say its not a career builder
Cry HAVOC! and let slip the lemmings of war!

She turned me into a newt!.... I got better

Spes Mea In Deo Est

11/07/2008 03:28 PM  Top
dreamsofinsomnia
dreamsofinsomnia
 
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I understand how you feel

i was shocked when they told me that i was ptsd

i had thought that what happened to me as a child had been handled and was no big deal it is only after i really started dealing with it did the ptsd get better

you don't have to be in the military to have ptsd

i am a psy major and it just so happens this week we covered anxiety, stress and dissociation

so we just covered this section people get ptsd from-natural disaters, terrorism, accidents, sexual abuse, sexual assault, rape, childhood abuse, kidnapping, and any other event that is tramatic

so don't feel bad about the diagnosis and don't think of yourself as the label they give you

to often people are given a diagnosis and live to that diagnosis

don't let the diagnosis own you

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll look up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing?"

You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?

Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
I breathe deep and cry out:
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"

Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
And wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...

Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?



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11/07/2008 05:33 PM  Top
sisters4life

Hi X when you get a chance go over to the treatment section and read the post on symptoms, causes, etc. I was never in service either most with PTSD weren't. Yes the ones who serve are more likely than others to be diagnosed with it, but it can happen to any one.

11/07/2008 05:36 PM  Top
ThisBlows
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Its not just a military disorder
Cry HAVOC! and let slip the lemmings of war!

She turned me into a newt!.... I got better

Spes Mea In Deo Est

11/07/2008 11:14 PM  Top
xMandiex
 
Posts: 129
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I know it's not just a military disorder. But people like my cousins, who go to war and face true horror, can come back and be fine - and me, who was assaulted once as a child and twice as an adult... *I* get it? I feel kind of weak.

Fortunately my therapist thinks we'll be able to level me out within a couple of months. I'm pretty excited about that. I'm eager to see what life without the paranoia is like.


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