Post Traumatic Stress Support Group

Will this post tramatic ever go away? I feel silly asking my counclor I dont want her to think that I am stupid. I experance nightmeres Flash backs, sleepwalking. There has been times that I HAVE SLEPT OUTSIDE MY SISTERS DOOR TO MAKE SURE THAT NO ONE WOULD HURT HER. Its really sad here I am weighing 250lbs standing 6ft7in a grown man inside Im the same little boy who slept with a flash light.

It subsides over time, but can come back when your memories are triggered.

I was so afraid of my child getting hurt by say the house catching fire or someone breaking in that I slept under her crib when my husband wasn't home. I wanted to be close incase anything happened, so I understand your fear. Sometimes you have to ask yourself, Is the fear real? Do you live in an area where someone would hurt her or is it just fear within you? Try just checking in on her and telling yourself..."she's ok. I can go to bed." Eventually you believe yourself. At least that worked for me.

My nightmares and flashbacks have stopped. Once I got all them memories back (mine were repressed) the nightmares stopped.

I'm sure your counselor won't think its a silly question, it's one we all have asked. Unfortunately for most of us we learn to manage and live with it.

Lori

PS< I am very sorry about your brother. Some of us just don't make it. I had friends who didn't make it. You are a survivor

Trent, PTSD is a mean disorder. It attacks us at inopportune times with inordinate reactions from us. As long as we have memories, we will have PTSD. I had mistakenly thought that my terror would end with the death of my molesters, but no, instead I had deep regret that I hadn't killed them before they could just die. I carry my hate and unforgiving attitude to keep myself free. I know that if I ever forget or try to forgive, I am validating their abuse and saying it doesn't matter. But by God.. it matters.

The fear is so very real, even though the source of the fear is long gone. It still takes time to overcome the fear itself. With time you can reclaim that power.

Brenda

Hi!

I know, sometimes I feel like am I ever gonna be OK? I had years and years of symptoms, getting worse every year for almost 30 yrs, till I was finally diagnosed and I am finally getting relief, I have a long way to go, as I must deal with all my trauma, the abuse as well as the trauma I inflicted upon myself in the wake of self hatred left after the damage was done.

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What kind of therapy are you doing? I am doing EMDR, an amazing therapy, if you haven't tried it already. I have had 5 EMDR sessions, and it truly took away every trauma that I worked on, it stopped flashbacks of it, it slowly faded from my mind, where I know it happened, yet I can't be traumatized by it anymore. I'm still working on my young years, but for some people, depending on the trauma, and the damage that was inflicted on you, it can take only a few sessions to give you immense relief. If you've already tried this, and it hasn't worked, my bad, and I wish for you the relief we all seem to be seeking.

I think we all would have liked to see her be able to get past that. It is not an easy thing to overcome and for some it never happens. Glory was a wonderful person and always had goos advice for us. I only wish that she would still be around.

Brenda

what happened to glory?

SHe past away a year ago this past JAn.SHe was something else.Always knew how to put a smile on someone's face.

Brenda

Glory will always be known as a icon here. When i joined MDJ she pulled me out from the dark and into the light.I love her and respect her i will miss her dearly.

Scott

Post edited by: 1magicman, at: 04/14/2010 06:27 AM

She passed away 3/22/09