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08/31/2008 04:24
Flaco73
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I must have been three years old. 1976, the year before Elvis died. It was the last year living on the street i was born on. I certainly remember when Elvis died. I was visiting the old street, and being babysat by old neighbors, and playing with their kids. When my father picked me up, he told me Elvis died. That is very clear.

Something from a year before, is a little murky. I was on the same side of the street, but on on the sidewalk, on the younger side of 3 years old. It makes sense a lot that my 4 year older brother was with me, to take me across the street to our friends'. I have only discussed this with my brother, in passing, and he non-chalantly confirmed it. My mother remembers nothing as usual, and my father travelled extensively.

All i can piece together: A man in the middle of the street, a red MG, and not such a good meeting of those two principals.

Elvis did die. He took uppers and downers, and ate fried peanut butter and banana sandwiches. I mention him, because it counts as one of my 1st major life memories. Also, i was only 15-20 feet away,facing the same direction, that I was a year before(man getting hit by car), on that sidewalk.

What exactly happened a year before, is, as I said murky, but haunting.

"Talkin' 'bout soulshine. It's better than sunshine. It's better than moonshine. Damn sure better than rain. Well, now people don't mind. We all feel this way sometimes. You got to let your soulshine. Shine 'til the break of day."- Warren Haynes

"Brains aint me forte." - Angus Young
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08/31/2008 09:50
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Flaco that could have easily been the beginning for you. I'm glad to see you are starting to open up and share some.
Suzanne

As quietly as little rabbit's feet,
The morning glory sun arrives to greet
The Red Man as he worships in his way.
For this he asks the Spirit every day;
Before I judge my friend, O let me wear
His moccasins for two long weeks, and share
The path that he would take in wearing them;
Then, I shall understand and not condemn.



"If you have a secret to tell or a problem you can't figure out.... whisper it to the wind and allow the wind to take it far away from you and set your mind free."

"It's about realizing, painfully, you've kept that voice inside yourself, locked away from even yourself. And you step back and see that your jailer has changed faces. You realize you've become your own jailer."

Where is that cheerful girl I used to know? I look in the mirror and it's like I don't even recognize myself. I look so down and tired, I don't see that girl that was so happy so long ago. What happened to the days I would smile? Where are the days that my heart wouldn't break? Where have I gone? I see that girl when I look in the mirror, but she's too far gone. I can't bring her back to life she's feeling to much strife. I feel her inside me, but my depression won't let her come out. I think the old me is gone without doubt.





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08/31/2008 10:09
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Hi Flaco, Don't rush with a flood of memories. I consider you my friend and know that you are on a very healthy road now, so in your own time, friend.







"We Know We Are Out Of Step When"

We cannot walk a straight line.
We've stepped on our brother's foot.
We forget to be thankful.
We feel alone.
We think our dance is the only dance there is.




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08/31/2008 22:13
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"Talkin' 'bout soulshine. It's better than sunshine. It's better than moonshine. Damn sure better than rain. Well, now people don't mind. We all feel this way sometimes. You got to let your soulshine. Shine 'til the break of day."- Warren Haynes

"Brains aint me forte." - Angus Young
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09/02/2008 06:14
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Take your time Flaco... we're all here for you. I remember visiting Elvis's mansion after he died. The only room we didn't tour was the bedroom where we were told he died, they had it blocked off, but the door was open where you could see the bed. Not quite sure why or how I remember that far back, looks like I was just a year older than you Flaco. But I remember thinking it was kind of a sad thing for my parents to do at the time. I remember a lot of people being there. I think it sticks out in my mind because up until that point I'd never known anyone at all that died. Thanks for sharing Flaco!
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