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05/08/2012 07:06 AM
Crazydazy
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This is more a rant I guess. I need to purge this from my heart or it feels like it will explode. I am reading a book about how important it is to engage your kids so they will grow up to be secure and happy adults and that an inattentive parent will screw them up for life. I am in so much pain that I am inattentive a lot. I have barely ever been able to get down on the floor and play with them since birth. I am very sad about it. I am also in the process of trying to wean my 1yr old as fast as I can so I can get on some heavier meds to cope with the pain. My heart is breaking because I actually love BFeeding her (I couldn't with my 1st) and she loves it too and screams bloody murder if I can't BF after taking a med. I am just having a horrible week. I just want my life to upswing again so I don't feel so lost and scared and not being able to see the purpose of living anymore. Luckily I have had so much experience with these down periods that I know it wont last forever and I just need to hang on but, when I am in them it seems like the darkness will be drowning me forever. blah blah blah. I can't even call any of my friends to vent anymore becasue they are so tired of me these last 3 years. I just hate feeling so utterly alone.
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05/08/2012 06:40 PM  Top
stolenheart
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There are other ways to spend quality time with the children, besides getting on the floor to play. I think some of these writers are totally out there, making us believe we have to meet certain criteria to avoid raising gun-totin' rebels.

Do what YOU feel like doing, and then find a way to include them. Want to hang out in the car for some quiet time for a few hours? Do that, but if you're reading, bring reading materials, too. Let them sit on your lap. Let them decide where they want to sit. lol. I don't know, just something that popped up off the top of my head.

If you're cleaning in the kitchen, as the older one to "wash" dishes. Unbreakable things, of course, but mostly let the older one play in the bubbles.

*sigh* I think with kids and depressed adults, distraction is the name of the game.

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