twt1999brd
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On February 24, 2006 I gave birth to a healthy boy. His name is Marcus and I love him so much that words could never express. April of this year I got pregnant and my husband and I are getting a divorce. Because of this situation I didn't want to bring another child into a haustle relationship and I didn't have the courage to give up a baby to strangers. So I had an abortion. It took me about 30 minutes just to walk into the office. I have cried so much before and even right before they put me to sleep for the surgery. I am still crying over it. I look at Marcus and feel like I have killed my son. I wish I could just get over it. Every time I see a baby on TV or on the streets I feel my heart breaking. I know in the end it was for the best because I do not have the money to raise another baby on my own. I know Marcus is the most important thing right now. My mother keeps telling me to focus on raising him. It is when I am laying there at night with just my thoughts that I begin to wallow. Will I ever move on???? |
