Self Esteem & Positive Thinking Support Group

"a deformity of the wrist which is produced by a growth disturbance in the inferior volar part of the epiphysial growth plate in the distal radius that results in the radius growing curved in the volar direction producing volar translation of the hand and wrist".

Basically my wrists are deformed and have a limited range of motion. I still play guitar, piano and paint, but my wrists are weak, tire easily, and sometimes suffer random severe pain. It doesn't effect my life too badly, but I often cover my wrists in sleeves due to embarrassment of my deformity.

I also have dermatillomania, which is a disorder in which I compulsively pick at every pore on my skin. It's really frustrating and hard to deal with. I'm covered from head to toe in scars and have even given myself staff infections. It's closely related to OCD. Picking my skin is like satisfying an uncomfortable itch and once i start, I can't help myself. It's weird and disgusting I know.

I suffered silently through high school, hiding my issues from everyone (including my closest friends) because I was insanely embarrassed and didn't want everyone to think I was gross or crazy. I'm in my second year of college now and less ashamed, but still could use encouragement and support. I think I'm attractive when I put on make-up, do my hair and dress well, but sometimes I look at myself and feel like a monster. I have to cake on makeup and cover my body to hide what I've done to my skin and hide my wrists in sleeves and under bracelets. Some days are better than others. I'm generally a happy person and don't consider myself depressed. My disorders are just so cosmetically unappealing that it's hard for me to feel pretty. And it's hard not having anyone to relate to with this. I feel really alone sometimes

Even if there is not another individual here with your conditions, you are not alone as we are all challenged with a condition or more than one conidtion here which makes life a tough battle- we are wounded warriors, yet together we are stronger as we battle side by side.We are all on a quest too- a quest for greater self esteem as well as a quest for more positive thinking- we are all at different stages on this quest /journey yet we are all here to assist one another all the same. Together we are all stronger.

My challenges/conditions are fibromyalgia, a scoliosis( slight curvature of the upper spine) that causes much back aches as well as trapped nerves, poor circulation and migraines. Mobility is very limited too, yet, my imagination is not or is my sense of humour!

You will receive much support here- can guarantee you of this as there are some amazing individuals in this group especially our very own wonder woman GL April, Natalia/Natty, Jeni, Faith, Erin/Irish Angel, Rachele, Spencer, Shelley- to name just a few!

Fantastic that you are in your second year of college. Are there any counselors at college so you can get some support?

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Warmest wishes from Devon in SW England UK to You.

Take most excellent care of You.(i) Angels look after You, too(i)!

Giant gentle hugs, love bat girl Clarita