Parents of Bipolar Children Support Group

I hate you bipolar when...

You take away my little girl and I no longer recognize her.

You make her make poor decisions.

You make her want to take her life.

When you make her angry

When................

I hate you bipolar that you have stolen my beautiful, talented, athletic, college focused , sweet girl. All those things are still a part of her, it is just rarely that i get to see it. You have stolen her future.

I hate that bipolar has made me an antisocial person. I find myslef shying away from talking to people now. I am afraid that I cant keep commitments. I hate how much time I have spent in hospitals.

Thank you for letting my vent

Here are the things you've caused that I hate.

I hate the loss of closeness in relationships. I hate feeling nervous to parent him because he might explode this time. I hate how well he's learned to manipulate that. I hate losing family and friend's relationships because they don't understand and instead judge me or him. I hate that he has lost friends because his depression pushes them away or his mania and recklessness scares them off. I hate how bp creates a lack of motivation because he fears failure before it happens. I hate how it makes him feel justified to do wrong and to blame others one moment then to later feel horrible, heartwrenching guilt for it the next. I hate the lack of knowledge on how to "normalize" his life. And the fear we all have regarding his future. And the lost past that was spent just surviving until the meds and us learning how to cope, started to return him to me a bit.

Thanks for the spot to vent...

I hate that I married a bipolar man (and had no clue!)and went through Bipolar HELL and had 2 children. I hate the fact that once I finally got me and my two children out of that horrible situation I discover that my 14 year old daughter is bipolar. The rages, impulsivity, rages, rages, rages .....having to physically restrain her....her trying to jump out of moving cars......crawling out of windows, fighting, going to court,community service, verbal abuse, hitting me, hitting my husband, her brother........has all become to much!!

IM MAD!!!!! Im mad because I thought we were finally going to have peace and it's nothing close to peace. I feel like I can't help her. I have her on medicine and in counseling...but what else? I don't know what to do? I think about her future and I just cry. What if she doesn't take her medicine? What will happen? What if I'm not there to help her? What if her brother has it?? Are you kidding me???

I can't hold myself together. I cry all the time. I'm beat down.I have no energy left...no fight left in me.

my best to you,will look for your posts.

hugs,Jackie.