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bpiiallen Posts: 16441
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Had a terrible morning with my daughter. We asked her to clean her room and it became an all out battle. She was screaming, I ttok a trash bag into her room and began throwing things away, she threw a chair and called me stupid, she got a spanking, all the wonderfully frustrating and anxiety causing moments that happen when I ask her to do anything she doesn't want to do. Finally after all that, she cleaned what was left of the mess and came to apologize. Then I made a huge mistake and she and I went shopping. It is that old "What makes me feel better" behavior and I sent her the completley wrong message. I am so regretful and wish I could go back in time and handle things differently. To top it all off I had no support from hubby. He just sat in his chair watching tv and then fell asleep!!!!!!!! I knew a the time to try and talk to him about it would just cause a fight and that would have been too much. Even now since things have calmed down I can't talk to him because he will tell me that I over-reacted and that he wasn't going to support that. I am sure that at some level I did overeact, but that is the thin line that I have such a hard time with. I wish he had helped me before it came to that. My friends call me Dani.
Sometimes I lie awake at night and I ask, "Why me?", then a voice answers "Nothing personal, your name just happened to come up."
Charlie Brown
Sometimes the strongest women
Are the ones who love beyond all faults
Cry behind closed doors
And fight battles no one knows about.
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