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willingwell Posts: 4
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Hello, i have posted on this forum before when i was in a really bad way and thought my life was really going off the tracks. I am happy to say things are much much better and i would like to take this time to share things ive learned. Now i dont know if i ever had what some people on this site have and im sure what i went through was nothing compared to what some of you deal with on a daily basis. I believe that what i was going through was comming of age struggles and insecurities also mixed with a bad drug habit. For a brief background i was suffering was really paranoid thoughts and delusions about the people around me, so much that it affected my sleep my well being and my attitude towards people. If anyone reading this is using drugs and feels this way i encourage you to stop for a bit no matter how hard it might be, believe me i know. But your brain needs time to think and comprehend the world and people around it, loading it up with drugs is not the answer and will not benefit but rather hinder your mental stability. Over the past months i have grown into my own skin, my own mind and my own actions. I regretted alot of my past and what i have done and i believe that it affected me in profound ways to the point where it manifested in a very real and very scary way. I was baffled by this and didnt know where to go or who to turn to. My advice for people (and take this as you will) the world doesnt stop and people dont stop either, be your own person be comfortable in who you are, be confident in your choices and stand fast for what you think is right. Forget stepping on other peoples toes and being too nice to other people because im sorry but the gods honest truth is that people WILL do and say whatever they want to you so why should you carry the burden of not being able to speak up? theres not enough time in this world to miss all the beauty and great experiences there are by closing yourself in. Another thing accept the past my friends. Dont live in the past and wish you could change it because you cant, you can however change here and now. I spend too many days and nights playing back conversations and things ive done to people but that was then and this is now and ive learned from what ive done but i digress. I really want to drive this home with people becase this is what really helped me, do not try to be someone you are not, you will feel yourself confused and you wont feel right in your own skin, humans are amazing creatures with so much to give so be your own and give what you have. sorry for the rant =/ I wish everyone the feeling of relief and stability from their thoughts. "life is what happens when your busy making other plans" or in this case when your stuck in your head. your brain is a wonderful place but you dont need to spend your life in that safe ivory tower afraid to go outside and play with the world. but thats enough thanks for reading if you made it this far and take care
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