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hello! my name is holly, i live crappy michigan and have all of my life. I have suffered from panic and anxiety since i was 17 years old. Mostly it would hit in the winter months. They have also discovered that i have a mitral valve prolapse which causes arrithmias and what not...that is kinda scary and they seem to link panic disorder to MVP. I am so glad to have found this website. Right now i have been battling this panic and anxiety on a daily basis. I dont feel myself, i never want to be alone... i feel like i have literally lost my mind. I used to take zoloft and i did for 3 years or more. Lat september i decided to wean myself off, and i did okay for ahwie but i noticed slowly my feelings of worry , depression and a few occasional panic attacks started to surface. Also among that time we were and still are having many money struggles, and i knew something was going on with my husband, i just wasnt sure what. Recently my husband had admitted to having narcoic addiction and was taking lethal amounts dalily. I think this may have been the staw that broke the camels back for me. being a medical professional myself it really threw me for a loop. though proud of him for comming forward i found myself obsessed with getting him help, which we did, and i found myself having more and more trouble dealing with it. i called my doctor to have him put me back on zolft 3 weeks ago. I also had a big incrase on taking my xanax, which i dont like to do either. I do feel a little worse since i started the zoloft, but i am not sure if it is me or the meds... it worked before why wouldnt it now?? medicine scares me actually, anything messing with my brain chemicals freaks me out. so a little about how i have been feeling, i just have that sence almost constanly of abnormality, i feel not myself, can focus on anything as little as cooking a meal for my children and husband, i cant feed my horses, because my heart starts racing, my body feels like i have butterflies everywhere, and then i just want to break down cring. last week i would wake up in the middle of the night, half out of it, break out in a sweat, the heart would start going crazy and i would freeze up and start to tremble all over. Scared to death and wanted to go to the hospital. This made it so i was scared to fall asleep in fear of waking up like that. i also get worried that what if i did something to hurt myself, lose control...i just dwell on it constantly! the only safe zone i have right now is work, and i work in a hospital, i have worked there for eight years as a critical care monitor tech. I am not comfortable in my skin at all, not at home, i just feel like a basket case and that i have totally lost it... any advise? |
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