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09/27/2008 07:42 PM

Intro from Kayla

Posts: 7

Hi everyone, my name is Kayla Kerns. I am 25 and have been dealing

> with panic attacks for about 2 years now. However the last 6 to 8

> months have been the worst. I can drive when there is someone with

> me, but can not drive by myself. I have to have my aunt or husband

> drive me to and from work. I hate it! I miss my freedom so much.

> I also can not stand to be somewhere, such as my house by myself.

> When my husband goes to work I usually go to my "safe place" which

> is my aunt and papaw's house. Luckily it is only 5 minutes away

> from my house. The longest I have been able to stay alone at home

> was 30 minutes as of recently (probably around 3 months or so

> ago.) I am on Klonipin and Paxil and while when I went on it2

> yeasrs or so ago it worked well, now I feel that it is not helping

> to do much more than maintain. I tried seeing a "counselor" but it

> didn't go good. She was nice but it did not help me to get over the

> slightest bit with my attacks. I have also suffered from

depression since back when I was in high school, on and off.

> I have never been part of one of these groups, I just found them

> today when loolking up info on PA's and thought it was worth a


> So I don't know much about yahoo groups or how to navigate myself.

> Another problem for me that I wondered if otheres of you were


> is that my mom suffered from PA's when I was younger, but has

> been ""okay" for 10 or so years now. Having had gone through it

> herself, you would think that she wouls have some compassion or


> words. However, all she says to me is that I need to "Suck it up

> and get oever it" and that I am just not trying to get better. It

> makes it so much harder. I am meeting with my MD next week to

> hopefully get a referral to a psychitrast and discuss my meds. I am

> excited to be a part of thsi group and hope I did okay on my intro,

> hope to hear from some of you soon. Thanks-Kayla



09/27/2008 10:26 PM
Posts: 352

Hi Kayla - glad you found us! I'm sorry to hear that you don't have much of a support system - but I think you'll find great support here. Good luck on your visit to the Dr & keep us posted!


09/28/2008 08:21 AM
Posts: 11
New Member

I can relate to the part of family telling you to "suck it up". For a while my mom would tell me that I was fine and I just needed to tell myself that and the attack would go away. I tried telling her that it's not that easy, if it was that easy I would never have an attack because I hate having them. I used to get so mad at her, I just wanted someone to understand how out of control I felt and to tell me that they understood. My mom is much better now at understanding how out of control I feel and that I can't just will it away. It helps so much when people understand.

09/28/2008 09:42 AM
Posts: 1037
Senior Member

Welcome Kayla. I'm sorry to hear you're having such a hard time, but I'm glad you found us. You've come to the right place. This forum has done wonders for me and I hope it can do the same for you. It's a lot easier to feel & be stronger with a strong support system and I think that's really what we are to each other on here. We're our own little panic "family"! Smile

I know how you're feeling. I never wanted to be alone when this first hit me and I could not go anywhere. I wanted my husband to stay home with me for every second, he was my "safe" person. (And still is, even though I'm a lot better now.) Home was my safe place, so I really would've rather been there alone than go anywhere else. What you're going through is something other's have suffered through and you can work through it and get better, so that should give you hope.

I am here to talk anytime you might need to and everyone on here is great.


09/28/2008 08:56 PM

Hi Kayla and welcome to the group. You are never alone on here

09/28/2008 11:14 PM
Posts: 2137
VIP Member

Welcome to the group. I am alot like you with not being able to drive alone and I dont like to stay home by myself and when I do, its not that long, you will find out we all have lots in common. And we will all get over this, baby steps first, then I cant wait to take a big jump, lol!

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