Panic Attacks

Sincerely...C

My husband is not in the military but does travel for a living. I do not work as I homeschool our 13 year old son who has mild/moderate cerebral palsy. I understand how you feel though with your husband coming in and out of your life. My husband is generally out of town Monday through Friday. He sometimes is away for 2 weeks at a time. I think part of my disorder is because of this. I feel panicy when he is away and I am responsible for everything and then I have to adjust to him being home again on the weekend. The only family I have is my alcoholic mother who is suffering from cirrhosis.

So far my husband is being understanding but it has only been 3 months.

I am trying to find something that can help me that doesn't involve antidepresents because I have had bad reations to 3 different types in the past.

I know how you feel. Especially about being angry at your husband. I hate that my husband can just go out and do anything. I am afraid to do anything because of painic. He tries to understand but doesn't really ahve any idea. I do go out sometimes but it has to be on my terms and I always have to take a Xanax or two to get through the night. I think he is so tired of me being "sick" that he is looking to leave. I don't blame him. I just started a new medication,. Welbutrin. It hasn't had enough time to kick in yet. Plus my md put me on a very low dose to start. I gain weight so badly with all the other ssris that is why he wanted to try this wellbutrin. But I know what you are feeling. I am alone a lot too because my husband usually ends up going out by himself because I can't bring myself to go. I don't know what it is like to have husband deployed. That has to add on to everything. But being alone stinks.