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slada Posts: 2415
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I do sometime because I miss my mom,my dad that pass away,my Country.We celebrate with family and this is just my husband,my kids and me,and some friends.I have much more friends in Winnipeg where I lived 8 years than in Ontario,so my Christmas was good and I felt better.Here I have one friend that comes in my house and sometime my husband friend.Most of the time my husband is working,so me and kids are along.I celebrate Christmas on January 7,so I prepare lost of food and cakes. I also love New Year eve and last year we celebrate with people from our country,it was big hall but this year I am not sure. We have wonderful time last year with real singers and songs from my country so it was beautiful.I had wonderful time,dancing all night.We sow first time after 11 years our friends from same city in my country,so can you imagine what happen?It was tears,screaming,hugging,unbelievable memories. This is what I need,fuck those antidepressants.I need fun,laughs and dance and friends that I know for years to be beside me.It is hard to explain nostalgia.It hunt you every day and night.I was thinking after 12 years I will be ok,but more time going on,I feel more depress.I love Canada and I am so Bless to be here but for Christmas times and Easter times I feel sad in my heart. Love you a lot A man sooner or later discovers that he is the master-gardener of his soul, the director of his life.
Begin at once to live, and count each separate day as a separate life.
Clouds come floating into my life, no longer to carry rain or usher storm, but to add color to my sunset sky.
It is a common experience that a problem difficult at night is resolved in the morning after the committee of sleep has worked on it.
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PhilPhil46 Posts: 9450
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I do at times, I miss my mom  she was my best friend. I am not a Doctor, Nurse or Medical Professional. Im not even Dr. Seuss, Dr. Dolittle or Dr. Dre. :) I only share advice from my own personal experiences with Panic Attack Disorder. It is soley for information purposes only, please continue to take your Doctors advice. I share what I have learned, read, experienced and know what has helped me, I share this information in hopes it will be of help or comfort to someone else. Good luck, Relax, and lets continue to support one another, and conquer panic the best way we can! :)
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janicepv  Posts: 2612
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I'm so envious of those who can say their mother was their best friend. I had zero relationship with my mother. She was around, I wasnt abandoned, but she was a very "difficult" woman to deal with. |
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Fidgetgirl  Posts: 6347
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OMG someone I can relate to!! Yes I too am envious of those that are best friends with their mothers. My mother had to be deleted from my life (FOREVER) she was so toxic..... Actually since I refuse to have anything to do with her my entire family has kicked me to the curb since my father passed away. So the holidays are hard as I don't have a family to spend it with and my husbands family is not too much better either. We stopped having Christmas yrs ago and it has changed me so much. I'm now free from all that fighting and her lies. My bank acct also looks good too after the holidays. So you are not alone in this issue and I pray you find some kind of peace and not let her ruin your holidays like mine use to. All toxic people are deleted from my life. If anyone turns on me one too many times it's over and I will have nothing to do with that person. Hope this makes you feel somewhat better to know your not alone. And guess what else?I have not had as many panic attacks since kicking her out of my life. She tries to call here but I won't pick up and this summer I returned her BD card to me with a dollar bill in it!!!! Hope this helped you and know it does not matter whether she is in your life or not but I sure feel free now!!! Post edited by: Fidgetgirl, at: 12/09/2010 01:55 PM Being Agor is almost as bad as the last job I had!!!
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Lightworker Posts: 57
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The holidays are difficult for me too. It's during that time that I miss my mother & my husband the most. Both were my best friends. In my belief system, we celebrate a holiday similar to Christmas, but the rest of my family are Christians. I go along with their celebrations & traditions but my heart isn't in it & hasn't been for a long time. I celebrate Yule privately and I'm okay with that. If I have to shop during this time of year, I try to go to the stores in less busy times of day. The crowds & bustle really makes me anxious. The heavier traffic scares the crap out of me. Winter is hard on me. The cold temps & often inclement weather make it difficult for me to get around. The pain is worse in cold months. The blah dreary weather doesn't do much to improve my mood. I tend to be more of a hermit in winter. |
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Conn65  Posts: 9593
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Christmas makes me miss family that have passed away. The cold weather gives me the winter blahs too. The busy stores and traffic make my panic worse also. But overall I love the Christmas season. Slada I'm so sorry you can't be with your mom at Christmas and that you are missing your dad so much. ~Contemplation often makes life miserable. We should act more, think less, and stop watching ourselves live. ~Nicolas de Chamfort
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slada Posts: 2415
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My dear friends,my kids gets lot of presents you know why? Everything is on sale after your Christmas so I can buy for kids lot of presents... )))))))))) We do not buy expense presents for kids,lot of chocolate,some cloth,sometime little expense presents. In my country and here we only giving presents for kids and never for each other or family. Here is different,so you my friends have to spend lot of money.My doter have 15 birthday January 27 and she got lot of presents that month. I am so sad when I hear some of you never get chance to be with your mom for Christmas.Lightworker I am so so sorry you lost your mom and husband,I can't imagine how you feel. Fridge,Jani sorry to hear about your moms,it break my heart,and I am sure you never felt any mother love.My dear friends,you have kids to give them love that you never had. Phil this is great and you are so lucky your mom was close to you. My mom is far,far away ((((((((((((((( She told me today on phone:I hope I will see you all before I die (((((((((((( How can I go when I have claustrophobia,I can't tell her that ((((((((( So so much pain,I feel I am not alive anymore...... I miss her so much,she is 78 year old and I am her only child.It hurt so so much((((((( A man sooner or later discovers that he is the master-gardener of his soul, the director of his life.
Begin at once to live, and count each separate day as a separate life.
Clouds come floating into my life, no longer to carry rain or usher storm, but to add color to my sunset sky.
It is a common experience that a problem difficult at night is resolved in the morning after the committee of sleep has worked on it. |
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AmyGirl Posts: 2068
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I so love Christmas just for the simple fact that I love to decorate and make lots of cookies and other goodies. I love when we get lots of snow. I love going with my husband and son and his brother and family and getting our Christmas tree from Lowes. We always freeze our butts off because it is so windy out there. But I love the smell of a Frasier Fur in the house. Now the part that makes me so sad is not seeing my Dad who passed away 5 years ago. Then I miss having my 2 doggies here. We had to put then to sleep 2 years ago, which seems like it was just as hard as when my Dad died. Then my dear sweet Grandpa who I was very close with passed away 1 year ago. That was very difficult for me. Finally my husbands Grandpa who I just adored passed away 3 years ago. I don't deal very well with losing people at all. I miss each one so much. Now last Christmas eve I was at the ER for the most horrible panic attack and have been anticipating and hoping that I don't repeat this. I'm not even gonna think about it and just try and enjoy getting ready for Christmas and think of only positive things. Slada you just try and think of happy things. That is what I am gonna make myself do this year. I have to or the evil one will have its way with me and make me miserable. I am not a doctor although wish I was. LOL All of my comments are strictly my opinion only from my own experiences. I am on no medications at the time but have taken medication in the past. So anything I say about medication is only my opinion from the experiences I have had while on medication. Never stop taking or take medication without talking to your doctor first. |
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njhoppe Posts: 1749
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Oh how I miss the Christmas times from when my kids were small and my mom was here. Mom's birthday was on Christmas Eve, so we made a big party out of it. My parents would drive 60 miles to the town where I live and they would get a room at a hotel with a pool. We would all go swimming and watch movies and eat popcorn and laugh....I miss her. She was also my best friend. There is a big hole in my heart now at Christmas. Our family still gets together (after I go to the cemetary alone). We still laugh, but not quite as much. {hugs}
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jojobear Posts: 6115
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I often get sad during the holiday season. Seems that the days here in the midwest are shorter so I don't get to exercise as much (I try to do stuff to exercise inside then). I miss the beach a lot though. I also do miss some of the old traditions. I try to continue some of them on with myself and the friends and family that are around. Seems that people come and go around here alot. I try not to stress too much over the holidays. If you search the web you can find a holiday for everyday that you can choose to celebrate. So I try to just look at the simple things and stay as positive and optimistic as I can. But yes, I sometimes feel sad. Sometimes I cry. That is okay. Let it out inside my house. Try not to go shopping as that just stresses me. I make alot of my own homemade goodies and just try to surround myself with good peoples. All I can really do. My life continues on. The seasons change. The world continues. I am safe though and have a roof over my head and some good friends here online and in the city I live in. Just try to remain optimistic. That's all I can really do. Hope that if I continue to make the right choices for me and those that I love around me that things will all work out. Just try to live in the moment. Oh and I do love to decorate! I am making some homemade gifts and ordered some things online. Seems alot of people around me are very concerned about buying certain things and wanting exactly certain things. I don't really understand that, but I am not the one to judge. Only can do what I can do right now. Try to keep it on the down low. LOL. |
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