Why wear a ribbon?

"I have panic attack and anxiety disorder. After realizing you can only wear one ..." (Mason813)

MDJunction to me

"I joined this site when i hit my ultimate low. Joining has helped me connect with others who understand me and how i feel and has helped me keep some sanity in my life.
Suzanne
" (sisters4life)
We comply with the HONcode standard for trustworthy health information:
verify here.
Panic Attacks Online Support Group
A community of patients, family members and friends dedicated to dealing with Panic Attacks, together.
Join This Group
Group Home   Forums   Articles   Members (473)   Diaries   Leaders   Guidelines
Related discussions:
10/15/2008 09:25
seasconnie
Green Ribbon
Posts: 51
Member

Send a PM
Give a Hug
My last panic attach was on this past Sunday. I woke up that morning feeling ok, but by around eleven am I could feel it coming on. It started like a feeling of dread and then grew into full on exhaustion, nerves, and not being able to even stand anyone in the room with me. Of course we were scheduled to go to church and it made my husband irritated. My mother-in-law who lives with us suggested I see someone (as in professional, which was not unreasonable, but at the time hit a nerve) and it sent me into a rage. To avoid making a scene I got my keys and went for a drive. When I came back ten minutes later the adrenaline had worn off and I was back to being tired so I went to bed. I get uncomfortable around crowds, but we only have about 20 people at church. So I am not sure what caused it, but I know I can't control when it happens. It's best for me just to get to a quite place and wait it out. I wish my family could be more understanding.

To keep myself from having these attacks I try to get plenty of rest, eat healthy and take vitamins, but still that is no guarantee.

Connie

Post edited by: seasconnie, at: 10/15/2008 09:27

Reply  


10/15/2008 21:13
sisters4life
Silver Ribbon
Posts: 1159
Senior Member

Send a PM
Give a Hug
Connie i think all of us with panic go through that. I know personally i have gone from being able to be in rooms full of people when i was managing a local band to now there are days i can't stand to hear someone else breathe it irritates me so badly.
Suzanne

As quietly as little rabbit's feet,
The morning glory sun arrives to greet
The Red Man as he worships in his way.
For this he asks the Spirit every day;
Before I judge my friend, O let me wear
His moccasins for two long weeks, and share
The path that he would take in wearing them;
Then, I shall understand and not condemn.

"If you have a secret to tell or a problem you can't figure out.... whisper it to the wind and allow the wind to take it far away from you and set your mind free."

"It's about realizing, painfully, you've kept that voice inside yourself, locked away from even yourself. And you step back and see that your jailer has changed faces. You realize you've become your own jailer."

Where is that cheerful girl I used to know? I look in the mirror and it's like I don't even recognize myself. I look so down and tired, I don't see that girl that was so happy so long ago. What happened to the days I would smile? Where are the days that my heart wouldn't break? Where have I gone? I see that girl when I look in the mirror, but she's too far gone. I can't bring her back to life she's feeling to much strife. I feel her inside me, but my depression won't let her come out. I think the old me is gone without doubt.

It's like burning your skin, it can happen quickly, but the pain can last for a long time, and the scar can last forever.

Your psychological skin has been burnt badly And the pain continues and the scars still there.
If you continue to experience this pain, shame, guilt,bitterness.... they are still controlling you right now.

It's like he is inside your head turning the dials making you feel bad about who you are, making you hate others, making you hide from the world
Reply  


10/16/2008 10:48
dreamsofinsomnia
Black Ribbon
Posts: 556
Member

Send a PM
Give a Hug
My husband has no understanding what it is like when i am having one either. He gets very irritated and calls me a psyco when i am at a peak of one. I beg him to leave me alone to just go away and leave me be but he don't always. I know that feeling. I don't dare drive when i have one i just can't focus. I feel for you and understand
Even though I'd be sacrificed,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?
Reply  


10/16/2008 15:46
Holt
Teal Ribbon
Posts: 343
Group Leader

Send a PM
Give a Hug
Hi Connie.

I'm sorry to hear you lack the close personal support that is so important. Please make sure you explain to them exactly what it is you're dealing with and how it affects you and don't minimize it at all. If they think you're embellishing or making it up, back yourself up with articles and/or documentation from the internet, there's plenty out there! If they still can't understand what you're going through and fail to offer support, tell them you are going to do what is best for yourself on your own terms. There's no one more important to you than you, and feeling this way is *certainly* not something you want to live with just because someone doesn't 'understand'.

I don't mean to sound like I'm "telling you what to do"! I just think that you either need their support, or they need to understand you're gonna do what you need to do to recover from this.

And yes, Cognitive/behavioral therapy is an excellent treatment for panic, but you're right, her timing in suggesting it sucked.

I can recall apologizing ahead of time (as well as after the fact) that at times I will be testy and irritable and it will seem like there's no reason for it. Just part of the emotions and uncontrollability of what I'm feeling at the time.

Connie, do what's best for YOU and ask anything you ever have a question about on here. We're all in the same boat & we all have some different tricks & tools to help get through the tough times.

See, I did it again...I'm writing a book. I gotta stop writing after work, I'm still too wound up!

I hope any of what I've offered helps Connie, and I hope you find the peace you deserve soon!

Andy

There's nowhere you can be that isn't where
You're meant to be -
It's easy.
All you need is love

“ Grief that finds no vent in tears makes other organs weep ”

—Dr. Henry Maudsley, British psychiatrist
Reply  



Start a New Discussion

Disclaimer: The information provided in MDJunction is not a replacement for medical diagnosis, treatment, or professional medical advice. Read more.
Contact Us | Bookmark Us | Add a Doctor | For Doctors | FAQ | Awareness Ribbons
About Us | Terms & Conditions | Privacy | Spread the Word | Advertise
Copyright (c) 2008 MDJunction.com All Rights Reserved