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Hope4Mom76 Posts: 7
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Hello, I hope everyone is doing as best as possible. Besides the average anxiety one gets while in college, I can only remember getting mini tini panic attacks where I'd have to pull over b/c I would hyperventilate. This was usually caused by stress in regards to exams or projects, etc. Just past month during mass, I had what I thought was a massive heart attack! The WORST feeling & desperation I had ever experienced! I was alone which made it worse. Long story short, I spent the night in the hospital b/c I lost most body function. I kept having attacks through the night. I was finally released when I could walk. Since then Ive had 4 other attacks but not nearly as bad as the 1st one. This just all started for me on 4/22/12. The Dr gave me Xanax & Ativan. The Ativan works better b/c Xanax makes me too sleepy! Also I was taking Paxil every night. I opted to take it in the PM b/c Dr said it would make me sleepy. Well it does & carries on until the next day & then some. I stopped taking it 3 days ago b/c I wouldnt be able to wake up & start my day! I will probably get swtched to Prozac tmrw. I wanted to try Paxil b/c I heard it helps if you have phobias. Two years ago out of the blue I developed a phobia. I can no longer drive on freeways. I start to feel like I am going to be trampled by the other cars & that they are moving way too fast! I also feel like every little sway or turn in the road will spin me out of control. It feels as if the fwy is uneven & I will slide off any minute espec if going up hill a little bit. Last time I was on the fwy was a year ago. The anxiety began when I was right in the middle lane. I had to stop & put on my hazard lights. I was frozen & could not move. I tried to slowly change lanes to exit off but I could not judge how fast or slow I was going. I felt that cars were going to crash into me if I changed lanes. After a good 10 minutes, I grabbed on for dear life & slowly crossed 2 lanes while crying & screaming. Felt like I was driving to my death. Thank God the exit was right next to me. As soon as I got off the fwy, I was 100% A-OK! But just recently, surface streets at night have been getting tough for me. I start to feel dizzy & tingly all over espec lower legs/feet. Sometime warm flush tingly feeling on my back or shoulders. I do pretty good on the surface streets during the day. My vision has been checked & all is good. I was in Target shopping for my friends baby & started to have a panic attack. Why WHy WHy?! Could it be that I am thinking that my clock is ticking & that I should have kids by now & the pressure I put myself under to have kids? Could it be that Ive had 2 attacks while in mass b/c I am constantly thinking & praying for my Mother who has End Stage Liver Disease? I am her care taker now & have been trying to get her on the transplant list. I also take care of my Father who has had 3 heart attacks last year. I am not depressed but sometimes I think of all the things I want to do in life & career wise that I am not able to do b/c I take care of my parents full time. I am not complaining at all & it is my honor as their child but I cant help to think what if...sometimes. I have tried a lot of the tips mentioned above & they one that sometimes workd & sometimes doesnt is the breathing. For example yesterday PM at Target, I felt the attack coming so I sat down & started the breathing. Well, it only made me feel more nausea! ??? Does anyone else run into this issue? Thank you for your time & God bless you all <3 |
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